Posted by Ensign Dradvia (Medical Officer) in You Can’t Go Home

Posted by Colonel Jackson Quade (Captain) in You Can’t Go Home

Posted by Ensign Dradvia (Medical Officer) in You Can’t Go Home
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Lt. Elbbirt led her back to Sickbay. Dradvia followed, she didn’t say a word. She was so grateful to be away from Colonel Quade. He terrified herShe barely breathed. The corridors were too utilitarian, smelled too right, the people too familiar to her. Some smiled, some tried to speak to her. She dropped her gaze, fighting every flinch, ever impulse to run. Lokhar would beat her if she misbehaved.

No, no… he’d given her away. Thrown her away.

Elbbirt walked into the medical bay. She nodded to Cmdr Salen as they entered. Dradvia stopped suddenly. The last time she was here a marine had grabbed her and taken her away. And now one was captaining the ship. She froze. Anyone else would shake and cry. Dradvia could only stand still and not breathe.

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

She watched Dradvia, she had no idea what she was going through, but the pain and fear, and loss she felt was real enough. “That will be all Lieutenant thank you” Reya said standing and walking over to Dradvia, once the Lieutant was gone, she wrapped her arms around Dradvia, “I was so relieved what I heard you had been found, ”

Reya Salen

Dradvia went very stiff and then thrashed until she was away. “Don’t touch me. No one is allowed to touch me.” She was breathing too hard. Run she had to run. Get away, Get Away! She was too stressed, too scared, to be ashamed of her rudeness. She remembered Cmdr Salen. She was kind. She was Dr. Tessan’s friend. Her eyes darted around the medical bay and toward the small office. “Where’s Dr. Tessan?” The question was whispered. She… she thought he would meet her. He … he promised not to abandon her. She… she thought he meant it.

She was taken, and now he didn’t want to see her. She had thought… at the end she had heard him. But it was just that memory in her head.

Star Fleet had really taken and tortured him?! Because of her? No… no it was just her stupid wishing that someone would save her. No one wanted her. She went rigid, posture too perfect, composure too… just too everything. “En. Dradvia reporting, Cmdr.” It was perfect, exact, not a single flaw, but inside Salen felt the utter ruins that was all that was left.

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Reya could feel the utter panic in the woman, but she did not react she just finished the hug. “Please sit down Dradvia” she said motioning to the tell. How does she tell Dradvia that her friend is missing and most likely been killed. There was the vid, maybe she would show her that first, but it might make it harder.

Reya Salen

“Yes Ma’am.” Dradvia went to sit exactly where she was standing, as if she would take a place on the floor. She stopped herself and moved to the chair. The one she always sat in in this office, and then stopped. She choose the other chair. Sitting with perfect posture, her eyes focused ahead, but not directly at Reya. She licked her lips, she was so thirsty. She gripped her hands tightly trying to ignore it.

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Dradvia, “There is no easy way to tell you this, but Tealor” she noted tears pooling in her eyes. “Went after you, and he was captured and is missing” she said. “He is ” she started to say presumed dead but could not bring herself to say it. “He left you a video, to give you should something ever happen to him, I can play it for you if you like?”

Reya Salen

Dradvia blinked. Her thoughts and emotions screamed in denial and guilt and strange memories of Tealor being tortured and killed while she was with him. And then…

Nothing. Everything shit down, locked behind a wall with no key.

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Reya new the look all to well she had see it in tealor when he first came to here. Rey stood and pulled a chair next to dradvia’s and just sat with her.

Colonel Jackson Quade
Captain U.S.S Wolverine

Dradvia didn’t come out of it on her own. NO! No! He doesn’t know anything! Please help him! He’s Dying! Silent tears slipped out of her eyes, but she was so still, so gone it was impossible to tell she was still breathing. Dr. Tessan, Please! Wake up! I’ll get you help, I promise! In her mind she was screaming, banging on the door. Please Help Him! Please! He’s Dying! I’m Thristy! Please PLEASE!

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

“Dradvia” tealors voice echoed in her mind. “Just relax, and let Dr Reya in, she can help you, she can help me” he said appearing next to her. “I’m still her,” he suggested.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

Dradvia slipped out of the chair onto the floor. She curled into a tiny ball, the tears falling so heavy she would dehydrate herself. “No, no, you’re dead. It’s my fault. I couldn’t stop them, you died and it’s my fault.”

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Reya got a glass a water and set it on the table infront of them “Dradvia there is water on the table” she said reachingn down to put one hand on her shoulder.. “You are going to be ok, “

Dradvia flinched away from the touch. Some part of her knew it was kindness, but she couldn’t stop the fear. She hated being touched.

“Really? Get up, drink some water” Tealors voice ringing out in her head, “I’m not dead I’m just missing” he said. .”Now quit with the theatrics I sent Reya to you cause I knew I could trust her with your care.” he said.. “Now quit being dramatic and get up” his voice said.

Reya Salen

The words hurt. She was letting him down, disappointing him. She had no right to be upset or feel bad for herself. She was at fault, she had to accept that. Pain and guilt and shame lanced along her arms sharply, so painful it stole her breath. She reached with shaking hands for the water. She sipped it, her body obeying. “It should have been me. I t… t… told him not to!”

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Reya did not flinch at her retraction, “Dradvia, it was you, you were taken, and would you let Tealor be taken without trying to get him?” she asked, “It’s not your fault” she said softly. She thought quietly, I need you to get better so we can go find him

Reya Salen

Dradvia didn’t believe her. And her desperation went unthought for fear of that disappointed voice of Tessan in her head again. But she knew… she knew she would never have gone after him. She was too afraid. She wasn’t brave enough. Her mind went numb again. It was the only way to function now.

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Eventually Cmdr Salen got Dradvia calm enough to return to her quarters for the first time. Dradvia tried, she really did, but she just couldn’t do it. She thought she wanted to be alone, in her own space. She tried to be just with herself, in the quiet, but it was worse than it had ever been. Sometime in the wee hours of Gamma shift there was a chime at Cmdr Salen’s door.

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Reya closed her robe and stood. “Moment” she called out, she opened the door. “Dradvia?” she said moving aside. “Come on in, and have a seat” she said and replicating two warm milks, she said it down on the coffee table. “How can I help you” she said sipping the milk

Reya Salen

Dradvia’s gaze dropped to the floor as she stepped inside, wringing her hands. She moved to a seat and sat very still and very stiff. “I’m… I’m sorry. I… I didn’t know where to go.” There was a ache in her voice, she was trying not to cry. “I… I can’t sleep alone, I’m too scared.”

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Reya stood back up left the room and quickly returned to the main room. She put fresh linen on the sofa, a pillow, and a thick full length Robe and clean pajamas. “You can stay here till we sort through that, ok?” Reya said, she would not normally do that but this was a special situation and given the small ship there were not really many options.

Colonel Jackson Quade
Captain U.S.S Wolverine

Dradvia chewed on her lip. “I… I don’t have to stay. I just, uh, I just wanted to know if you would let me work in sickbay? I can inventory or clean. Anything. I know I’m not allowed patients. I just… please don’t make me be alone.”

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

“First I want you to sleep, I will be here, if you can’t sleep find something to lay on the couch and read. ” she said, “If you you are really uncomfortable you can do one of two things, sleep with me in my bed, or sleep on the couch cussions near my bed if it makes your feel safter” she looked at here, “As to working in Sickbat, inventory sound like a good place to start but under supervision by me ok? at least for a few days?”

Colonel Jackson Quade
Captain U.S.S Wolverine

Dradvia nodded looking at her hands. Lt McKenzie had told her that. She wouldn’t be allowed to work alone for awhile. She wished the woman had come with her. She had liked her, felt safe around her. But… but she thought Tessan would be here. She liked Salen, she just didn’t know her well. “I… I’ll be okay right here. Ththth… thank you.” She took the blanket and wrapped it around herself. She curled up in a ball on the chair, closed her eyes, and tried to relax.

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

She watched Dradvia for a short time, “Try to get some sleep and we’ll talk in the morning, I’m glad your back Dradvia” she said as she went back to bed.

“Thank you.” Dradvia’s response was quiet, soft, barely more than a flicker of thought, but it was sincere. She curled into the chair and watched the planet rotate below them.

She’s trying to help you, dradvia, she cares and will treat you better than I did tealor rang in her subconscious. *

Colonel Jackson Quade
Captain U.S.S Wolverine

No! NO! You didn’t do anything wrong. STOP SAYING THAT!. Tealor had been the only person who made her feel like her effort was enough. He didn’t dismiss her.

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

They capatured you, I obviously did something wrong he said. You should watch the video he noted

Colonel Jackson Quade
Captain U.S.S Wolverine