Posted by Ensign Dradvia (Medical Officer) in Weekly Requirements

Posted by Lieutenant Dr Tealor Tessan (CMO/CNS) in Weekly Requirements

Posted by Ensign Dradvia (Medical Officer) in Weekly Requirements
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It had been a week. Dradvia saw Tessan daily. The crew was too small not to, and she worked with him. He had ordered her to decide what she wanted out of therapy. She’d worried herself sick over trying to figure that out. Nevertheless, she did her best to come up with something that would be of benefit to herself.

At 1600 she pressed the chime in Tessan’s office for her next appointment. At the end of her last appointment she had been glad that at least he hadn’t asked her to come up with a holodeck program to use. She had one now that she really liked. His office was just as good, more neutral and professional which was reassuring for her.

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Teaolor looked up from his work, where had the time gone. He was so busy that days felt like seconds, “Come” he said leaning back in his chair woundering what Dradvia had finally decided on.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

Dradvia entered, glancing all around the room, even though it was small and didn’t change from the last time she was there. She took note of the work on his desk. “Should I come back?”

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer
Tealor watched her walk in, she watched as she scrutinized his rather emtpy office, he motioned to his work.. “This, can wait Ensign” have a seat he said leaning back in his chair. “Can I get you something?” he asked pointing to the replicator.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

“Alright.” She didn’t mind coming back. She had nothing else to fill her time with. Just her empty quarters and her books. Sitting down, Dradvia shook her head. Then reconsidered. “Just water, please.”

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Tealor smiled, stood and moved over to the replicator. “Two Waters Please” he asked. He picked up the glasses as the replicator chimed complete and gave the Ensign a glass and walked around to his chair. He sat in silence for a long moment takeing note of her body lannuage as he took a sip off his water.

Dradvia was alert, perfect posture and sitting in a way that allowed her to watch Tessan as well as the door. She took the glass and carefully took a sip and then another.

“How can I server you Ensign?” he finally asked.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

“Well, it’s been a week. You said you wanted to meet every week. So, ummm, I’m here.”

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

A small snort of air left his nostril, a chuckle maybe. She certianly was blunt it was bettere than dancing around politly and wasting ten minutes on useless talk. Part of him appriciated it. “So, did you do your homework ? ” he asked picking up a PaDD and staring a new entry, he entered in her basic data and then looked up.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

A rushed forced puff of air leaving her lungs was the only response for a moment. She took a sip of her water. She wasn’t stalling, but rather trying to determine if he would think she made the right choice. Would he be happy with it, or would she be in trouble for picking the wrong thing?

“I did. Last time I told you I don’t want to change anything about myself. I honestly don’t know what I want out of therapy. I come because I am ordered too. I don’t mind though,” Dradvia rushed to add. “But… but I think I would like to be able to sleep.” She gave that self-concious shrug. “I told you I have been having trouble because of the warp engines. When they start and stop, it terrifies me. It wakes me up or causes nightmares. And drugs… I won’t take them. It’s too risky.”

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Tealor looked at her his expression was rather blank, as he processed what she had just said. There was a long moment of scilence as he condistered her joice and what that meant. Certianly she at this time did not want to change anything about herself, and as far as he was concerned she did not need to unless it was causing her issues or she was unable to do her work.

“Excellent!” he finally responded. “Sleep is something that will help you,” he turned a little in his seat “So you know what’s causing the issue we have talked about that, and your resistance to drugs which is perfectly ok” he noted. “Have you thought about options?”

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

“I use a Delta wave machine to help me fall asleep. That doesn’t stop the change in the engines from waking me. I have had some limited success with lucid dreaming to wake me when I have nightmares. If I know when we are arriving or departing, I will adjust when I sleep around that.” It didn’t stop her from panicking while awake, but at least she was awake.

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Tealor made a couple notes, as he listened. “I am asuming that you have tried ambient noise to drown out the sound of the engines?” he paused only a moment because he was sure she would have tried that, his guess that her suroundings being completetly blocked to her sense would simply just highten the fear. “Fear is a tricky advisary” he finally noted, “. He does not play fair I’m afraid, how are you managing your fear before you go to sleep?”

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

“I do use music sometimes, but it’s not the sound of the engines, it’s the feel. The vibration through the deck plating.” The music helped distract her from all the people who walked by her door while she slept. But fear was tricky because then she was afraid to sleep because she might not hear someone coming in.

“I read until I fall asleep.”

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Tealor thought some more he had acouple of idea’s that might server to make it easier but he was more interested in letting her talk some. “I imagine it’s hard to get to sleep again once someone walks by as well. “How does reading make you feel?” he asked.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

“I don’t know. I never thought about it.” Her head tipped to the side, her gaze focused far away. “I guess it makes me feel hopeful. Makes me feel free.”

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

There, what ever your thinking bout there hold on to it, “What about it make you feel free, hopefull?” he asked, wanting her to dig deeper into the feeling. He watched her closly for signs of too much stress, but she needed to start diging past the surface if see was going to kick fear in the teeth.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

She gave that self-concious shrug. “It’s not my life. I get to be someone else for awhile. In books there is always a happy ending.” There was that shrug again. “I wish my life was different, Dr. Tessan. I wish I wasn’t this way, but I don’t want to change because I don’t want to be taken again. Happy endings don’t really happen. There is no hero. There is only myself to keep me safe. But books let me pretend for awhile.”

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

He wanted to so bad to tell her that it wasn’t true, that there were happy endings, that one could move through life and not worry about lose, about injury or death. He could not, it was a lie, truth was any of them could be killed at any momemt it was the job, but her fear went beyond that, it was not so much death that she was afraid of but enslavement and torture or worse. “I can understand that” he said, “What kind of books are you reading?”

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

Dradvia shifted in the seat, and her face flushed slightly. She picked up her glass and took a long drink. Then, she set it down carefully. “Anything fiction. Fairy tales, myths, historical, contemporary. Anything that is easy to follow. Sometimes mysteries if I need a really difficult distraction.” What she didn’t tell them was they were all romance novels. She wasn’t comfortable telling him that. But where else did one get a hero and a happy ending?

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Tealor smiled “Those are all good escape paths” he said, “Nothing like a good fantasy story with political intregue, love triangles and the lot. I’m always amazed by books from different species and how they view suchthings.” Tealor paused thinking a moment. “So how can I help you with your sleep?” he asked.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine