Posted by Lieutenant Commander Bethany Kovra Gadi (Chief of Security) in Gadi’s Quarters- Commiseration

Posted by Commander Shara Calloway (Chief Intelligence Officer) in Gadi’s Quarters- Commiseration

Posted by Lieutenant Commander Bethany Kovra Gadi (Chief of Security) in Gadi’s Quarters- Commiseration
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“Oh, I know it. It’s why I went into Intelligence. Doesn’t make it less true that we aren’t fighting to win, but to keep the status quo.” She knocked back half of what was left and glared at the glass as if it did something wrong.

Lt. Cmdr. Gadi, COS

Shara got up and moved to the replicator, grabbing a glass of water and moved back to Bethy, sitting it down. “I’m going to sounds unusually like a mother just now, but you need to drink that. Since you’re already said you’re aiming for permanent amnesia, and I already said killing brain cells was no-no, I’d really like to make sure you don’t end up in Sickbay because we’re being stupid. We’re a lot of things, but that is not one of them.” She did not offer to refill the glass just now.

~Shara Calloway, CIO

“I had a mother, I don’t need another one.” She didn’t snap, but the tone was bitter. Her mother had been a beautiful woman, filled with joy and wonder. Thinking of her reminded her of the reason she was drinking. Shara may not want to refill her glass but it wasn’t empty yet, and she still had a bottle of whiskey.

“Okay then, I’ll be a friend.”

The mention of sickbay made her wince internally. Aasrel would throw a fit and confine her with forcefully. Ah, he was in recovery anyway on the Star Base. “I have those nifty little pills Intel gave us. I’ll take one when I’m ready.”

Lt. Cmdr. Gadi, COS

“To what end?” Shara asked. She hadn’t missed Bethany’s reaction. “Look, I’m hardly one to judge the need to drown your sorrows. Goodness knows I’ve done it enough just since I came here. But I’ve been honest with myself and know it’s not a great reaction. But I also have Micah. When I get to that point that feels uncomfortable close to being like my father, I can let him pull me back from the brink. You were drinking alone before I arrived. Go ahead and try and tell me I shouldn’t be concerned. Depending on how good it is, I might even believe it.” Likely not. Shara was too observant and while she only knew Bethy so well, after everything that went down these last months, she’s like to think she could read the woman at least a tiny bit. And Shara felt she had a right to be worried. It was one thing to share drinks, but the way Bethy was downing them, it was behind drowning sorrows.

~Shara Calloway, CIO

“I’m not worried about alcohol. It’s not a great answer but it’sthe one I’m going with right now.” It wasn’t even getting her drunk. Thanks Old Man. She rolled her eyes, “I don’t care if you believe it.” Because Bethany knew if roles were reversed she would worry about Shara. She had. That night she found her drinking shine in the dark in Bethany’s quarters.

“Clearly,” Shara said dryly.

“If you need to be worried, there is an Admiral and a Commodore on the station that will beat it out of me. Right now people are leaving me alone. I’m not sick anymore, everyone made ot back, and other than debriefing no one is demanding anything of me. You’ve got Pikelsimer, I’ve got me.” She had Aasrel, but she wasn’t telling anyone about him. He was safer that way.

Lt. Cmdr. Gadi, COS

Shara stared at her hard. “You are so full of bullsh!t right now, you know that, right? I have Picklesimer because I let him in. I didn’t push him away like you’re doing with me right now. And I know I can’t possibly understand your reality right now, but I’ll be damned if I let you destroy yourself before my very eyes.”

She set her glass down to the side, and moved closer to Bethy. “Here’s the thing Bethy… nothing you actually need will magically appear from any bottle you consume, no matter how many you go through trying.” She reached over the took the bottle away. “And so help me if you want to fight me over this, we can, but I know a cry for help when I see it, because it’s been me often enough over the years. You said talking won’t change anything. Maybe you’re looking at wanting to change the wrong damn thing. So maybe you should start talking anyway and see what happens. Because I’ll tell you something you should already know. I’m a damn stubborn woman and I’ve survived a lot of really crappy stuff and I’m probably one of the few people who can understand how damn hard it is to take the next step when everything inside you says its not worth it.”

~Shara Calloway, CIO