Posted by Lieutenant Dr Tealor Tessan (CMO/CNS) in Weekly Requirements

Posted by Ensign Dradvia (Medical Officer) in Weekly Requirements

Posted by Lieutenant Dr Tealor Tessan (CMO/CNS) in Weekly Requirements
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Tealor leaned his head back, he knew there would be no arguing with her. It was not a ploy to avoid therapy, but a deep desire to help people that was driving it, he knew that about her clearly enough to not try. He sighed as tears started falling again, running down his cheeks, he did not say much just thought and remembered. He was thankful that she could just sit with him, didn’t feel the need to speak or stop him from crying, she certainly was a good friend.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

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Sisnil knew when her next appointment was. They were going to work on that tampered memory. Dradvia was sick of it. There was nothing wrong with her memory. If she didn’t trust Sisnil she would think they were trying to trick her. She pressed the chime on Tessan’s door and waited.

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Tealor already had her water and two steamy tea’s sitting on the table. “Come” he said. “Good Evening Ensign, have a seat, can I get you anything else?” he asked far more chipper than he had been the past week.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

Sisnil arrived shortly afterwards. “Did somebody secretly name me Ship Tech Support?” He said as he entered.

~ Zoi

Tealor snorted a laugh, “That’s and odd statement” he said motioning to the seat where he tea was sitting.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

Sisnil sat down. “Well, when everyone who has a technical problem they don’t want to alert engineering for, suddenly I’m not the big bad Syndicate guy anymore.”

~ Zoi

Dradvia was glad for that. Not so much the selfishness of her crewmates, but that Sisnil had something to do than stare at the wall.

Tealor chuckled, “Funny how people’s opinions change simply because they need something” he said. “For the record mine has not” he had never really seen Sisnil as a bad guy, he did what he had to to survive, and now had to learn to function out of that environment. It would never completely go of course but change was possible with time.

“I was thinking we could try something a little different today.” he said looking at Dradvia, “I would like to show you the memory from my perspective instead of yours.:” he said hoping that the conditioning would be weaker at least, “What do you think?”

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

Dradvia sighed. The whole thing made her stomach queasy every time she thought of it. She wasn’t really okay with it, but if it would finally show them this was a waste of time she would. “Okay.”

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Tealor encouraged her to close her eyes, he knew the conditioning was already working her emotions. Softly he drew here in , the top of the waterfall is where he took her first, something familiar but it was from the holodeck not Elora’s memory it was less real. Then they were looking at her memory completely separate from it, she could see her self in the room, she was looking for something, her hand slipped, she hit the floor, then all the sudden she was in the corner and Sisnil was knocking at the door. She could not see how she had gotten there. He stopped there. “Ensing, your thoughts?” he asked.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

Dradvia was holding Sisnil’s hand like her life depended on it. These sessions always terrified and upset her. She never understood why. Other session did the same, but she knew why. Nothing happened in these session, but they bothered her the most.

Dradvia watched the memory as it played. Just like she remembered…except… “My flash back is missing.”

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Tealor looked at her , he did not want to rush her, it was important that she firgure it out on her own.. her own mind needed to free itself and connect what happened. “What does that mean for you, I can run it again for you if you like”

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

“Ummm… you can’t sense me remembering my memory?” Dradvia didn’t know. She knew she had blanked the middle of that time. Was she supposed to see what happened?

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

“That’s good, so if I can’t sense you having a memory, what do you think that might mean?” he asked playing it slowly again from here she is slipping to where she is in the corner, it was a hard cut like in a movie if some change scenes all the sudden.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

“I blocked it? It was just a flash back.” She didn’t sound quite so sure this time.

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

He looked at her, “Do you really think that?” he asked, “Where is the flashback?” he asked motioning to the scene, he played it again slower this time.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

“I don’t know.” She was becoming agitated. They could both feel it and she was making small sounds of distress in his office. “It’s not part of this memory. It was a memory I had inside this one. Why does it matter?”

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

She was not a telepath so she would not know, so he decided to see what happened. “Well for me flashback or no the memory would be disjointed like it is but ,flashback or no,it would be part of the same memory, for me the two are separate” he said trying to keep the focus on himself a little. “Memory in the storage room is a separate memory just as it is for you.”

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

Nothing he said made any sense at all. “Well, just…can’t you pull up the other one if you want to see it? Like this one?” Tessan could feel the building agitation and fight/flight response.

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Tealor did not normaly manipulate feelings they were normally needed for healing.. in this case he worked to counter the fight or flight with his own calm emotions. “Its ok Ensign, if the flashback was part of the memory, meaning you had a flashback. I would see it as a single memory, instead there is a gap” he said hoping it would sink in.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

“Okay,” Dradvia didn’t sound so certain. They were both her memories. A memory was a memory. She knew how the chemical signals formed in the brain to create them. One was formed many years ago and the other just a couple of weeks. New neural paths were made when you were reminded of something from a previous memory to connect them. “Are you talking about connecting neural pathways? Because they might be connected, but that doesn’t make them the same memory.”

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

“Yes and no, in a session like that it would be like recording a live playback so anything that happened in that memory, would be congruent. ” he said,” for me in my mind if the flash back was part of the memory it would be here not in a different memory like it is in your mind” he said pushing more calm thoughts her way. “Something is forcing that exact memory to surface for you every time, which is not how flash back work”

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

There was too much influence for her to make connection Tessan was looking for. “Well… it’s the banging and the yelling while I was hiding. That’s what forced me to have a flashback.”

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer
He was starting to wonder if the only way he was going to get through was to force his way in.. maybe if.. “Ensign what if I could show you what it should be like? It would mean going to the first time you pulled me into your memories. So I will understand if you dont want too.”

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

“Okay.” She had a little more trust in Tessan now, and Sisnil was there with her too.

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Talor took her to the memory when he got pulled into her flash back.the memory from where they were to her being submissive was fluid without disruption. She could sea tealors words of praise triggering her into.the submissive response. He then shifted to her momery and when the flashed back the flash back was slightly different. It was also less stressfull. He took her back to the falls. “Do you see the difference”

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

Dradvia nodded. In Tessan’s office she did the same, but she was becoming more agitated, fidgeting and making soft sounds of distress.

“Isn’t that just because you have your own memory of it?” Even her mental voice sounded strained, a bit far away, like something was trying to shut a door or push her under water.

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

“Stay with me Ensign, you are ok, ” he pushed more calm trying to segment her from the conditioning. “The same would be true of the other memory but the old memory is missing from that one.. ” he said “So there is only one thing that can mean” he said not bringing to attention the face, the humming.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

“That my brain is broken?” There was a very hopeful note to the thought. It might be too much for her to know someone had tampered with her mind… but that wouldn’t help her.

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Tealor looked at her and slowly, “I’m sorry Ensign, I assure you that is not the case, ” he said thinking here we go, he would try to keep ahead of her emotional response and programing as he let it out. “The only explanation is tampering, we need to see what actually accrued in that time space that’s missing.”

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

“No! You’re trying to scare me! No one came near me, but Sisnil. I won’t let you frame him.”

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Tealor let the memories fall aways like water of a table, soon the room was back and she was lucid in the office. “Ensign, I’m not trying to frame Sisnil, I’m trying to the opposite, I know it wasn’t him I’ve seen it but I need your help. ” he said, “Zoi have my intentions been anything by in your and Dradvia’s best interest?” he asked

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

Sisnil sat next to Dee and hugged her gently. “He’s right, Dee. He’s trying to make sure Starfleet can’t implicate me. He’s helping me by putting you through this.”

~ Zoi

Dradvia pulled her feet onto the chair and hugged her knees. She was never alone with anyone but Sisnil and Tessan. No one could have tampered with her mind. She was in her room! No ONE came in her room. No one had been in her room! She shook her head no, but they could both tell it was to her internal thoughts and not to them. She laid her head on her knees and closed her eyes. “Just…do whatever you have to…”

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Tealor looks at Sisnil , did she just figure it out? do yo think he thought to him. “Ensign in order to break through I’m going to have to put you in a deep state of hypnosis, I need full control of your mind and it’s ” he paused. “Intrusive, I have to go deep into your subconscious, I’m going to see things you don’t even know about potentially. ” he stopped. “Commander Salen did it for me when I was lost, I don’t regret it but it was hard for awhile after” he noted. Dradvia new this has Tealors counselor and close friend and confidant.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

There was a sense of negative acknowledgement to Tessan. Not quite. She’s closer though, he said. “I’ll be right here, for as long as you want me to be,” he said to Dee.

~ Zoi

“I’ve been through worse.” It wasn’t sarcastic or brave or bluff or self-reassuring. Just truth and a sad acceptance. The only thing that was really hers had been violated, according to them, and now she had to give what was left away. Dee’s fingers found his hand that was wrapped around her and held tightly. She didn’t want him to go anywhere.

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Tealor felt and heard her thoughts he had not closed himself off too her having planned to go right back in. Tears were pooling into his eyes as he fought them back. I don’t know another way, do you? he thought to Sisnil.

He knew the answer was no, but he had to try. He knew how intrusive it was, he still to this day, years later could feel Reya’s mind in there like it was always watching, especially when he was meditating or lost. For him it had become a great comfort having his best friend with him in away encouraging him when he needed, convicting him when he was being stupid. He feared though, that for Dradvia, at least in the short term, it would be a male presence intruding in her solitude, it would feel like her boss was watching her every move off and on duty.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

I would do it, but it would look bad, Sisnil sighed softly as he hugged her. I could try to lessen the lasting impact after you do it.

~ Zoi

No i’m fine, I just did not want to do it if there was another way he through.

“Ok Ensign,” he said moving to his desk he pulled out a very old looking metronome it was the old triangle wood ones. It was a deep red and made out of some sort of red wood. He set it down on the table, “I’m going to hypnotise you, Sisnil will be her with you the entire time, I will have to make contact with you, i can place my hand on your arm, so you can continue to hold on to Sisnil’s hands if that works for you?” he asked

Dradvia nodded, but her fingers tightened desperately on Sisnil’s. The only outward sign of any emotion.

“Once you are under I will have full access to your mind, I’ll do my very best to stay out of area’s that are not the current target of thought, but the mind is a powerful and you still may take me places, especially places that you need to share but don’t want to out of fear. ” he noted. “And I’m sorry I have to ask you this one last time, as there is no going back. You are ok with me, entering your subconscious?”

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

“Yes.” She wasn’t, but there was no choice. She had no choice. Dradvia had learned long ago it was better and less painful to just go along.

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

This was killing him to have to do this to her, he could not imagine what it was doing to her, they had come such a long way. “Ok Ensign” he said trying to keep at least some professional line in place for her, though they were about to become fare more intimate with each other that either of them wanted. It would not linger for him though as it would her. “I’m sorry, I’ll try to get it done quickly if I can” he said his finger pulling the metronome to the left. “Mr Zoi do not focus on the metronome or my voice.

“Ensign, Listent to the sound of the metranome” he said as he released the the hand. Tick, Tick, Tick, Tick it went. “Listen to the rythm” he said his voice becoming very monotone. “Here it resolved it’s self to you, your thoughts” He said pushing into her mind.

Tick
Tick
“It’s Rythm”
Tick
Tick
“Listent to my voice, let it become more aware in your mind.
Tick
“Your thoughts and my thoughts connected.
Tick
“Your will and my will are becoming one”
Tick.

And then it happened. CLAAAAAAACK the last tick froze the sound echoing through an empty white chamber. no one was there but her. Tealors voice echoed from all around her.
“Ensign, Lets go back now to the night when you slipped off the table. ” he said but it was like her own internal monologue not him from an external source. As if her innervoice was now tealors and not the one she had known her entire life It was unsettling. Tealor was now witnessing anything her subconscious wanted him to know. He should see the reality of what happened in the missing time even if her conscious mind did not want to go there. He braced his mind for attach, and for random flashes of her personality that he did not know, random events person, both good and bad circled him wanting to be heard and scene and let free. He tried to focus on where she was taken them.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

Dradvia was walking down a corridor. She was meeting Sisnil and Simon at the holodeck. She’d had a good day and she was excited to have someone to spend her time with. The ship stopped suddenly. It wasn’t something most people noticed without looking out a window. Now that the ship had stopped, Tessan was sparkly aware of how aware of the movement he had been. And how aware of the full stop he was now.

It brought panic and fear. Where were they? Why had they stopped? What was happening? The panic became his and the memories for it. He became acutely aware of why this… the fear of the engine, was the first thing Dradvia had asked to work on. The panic was paralyzing.

She was having a severed panic attack. She turned and headed back to her quarters. She didn’t want anyone to find her. She had to hide. What if it was a Syndicate ship or worse that made them stop. She could barely breathe. She thought someone yelled her name and she began to run.

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer