Posted by Ensign Dradvia (Medical Officer) in Weekly Requirements

Posted by Lieutenant Dr Tealor Tessan (CMO/CNS) in Weekly Requirements

Posted by Ensign Dradvia (Medical Officer) in Weekly Requirements
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Grabbing the monitor she stood, “Yes Sir.” She was eager to get out of there. Just to breath, to not think about anything from her past. She’d go back to the holodeck again. She really liked that program. Maybe… if that place were actually real, she’d go on vacation there.

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Only a day past before she had recieved a message from Tealor,

I was looking at the results of last night, connect it to your Padd and press the button on the side, it will recieve the changes i have made
Regaurds
Dr Tessan

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

Dradvia read over the instructions, plugged the band into her PaDD. When it was done she set it by her bed for when she went to bed.

Thank you Dr. Tessan.

En. Dradvia

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

For the first few days there were new updates, and then things looked like they were working much better. Soon it was time for another meeting.

Tealor escourted NE black out the door, she was around Dradvia’s age and giggling something fierce when Tealor opened the door, walking her out of his office. “See you next week lieutenant” he said.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

Dradvia had seen her around. It was a small ship. She couldn’t imagine why she was giggling, but the girl didn’t seem able to do anything else. She turned to the door and Tessan. “Dr. Tessan. Do I need to reschedule?”

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Tealor gave a low chuckle.. “No Ensign, you are just in time, Ensign black was just leaving.” he said waving her off. “Please come in, water?” he asked as he moved over to the replictor, there were two empty glasses along with a half eaten bowl of fruit sitting on the coffee able in front of the sofa.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

Dradvia entered the office and sat on the chair she usually occupied. “Yes, please.”

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Setting some water down in front of her , he tool up is spot behind his desk with his tear. He much more enjoyed the couch but this gave her some space and made her more comfortable. He took a long sip of tea.

“So how was your week?” he asked.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

“It was pretty normal.” Nothing out of the ordinary that week.

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

“Nothing?” he asked, “I do see that at least from a wave pattern and time persepective your sleep looks much better” he looked at her for a long moment trying to get a feel for how she was feeling.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

“Nothing out of the ordinary. It was a quiet week.” People were getting used to her quiet presence. She was fading into the background and could just do her work. “I uploaded all the changes to the band you sent me.”

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

“Quiet is not a bad thing” he said, “What would you like to do with our time today? ” he asked there were options and he certianly had his idea’s but he wanted her to take control and lead things as they moved forward.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

“I don’t really have anything in particular. I guess the regression, unless there is something else you want me to do.”

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

“Are you feeling up to the knight terrors today?” he asked. “It’s the most stress full for you emotionally, which means it’s also the area that will have the most impact with the technique.” he suggested.

Leaving her fellow surviors would work as well, but she seemed reluctant to talk about it and he had promised to let it die.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

Dradvia nodded. “Alright.” She didn’t want to, but that was why she was here. She set her glass down and crossed her arms, lowering her gaze to the floor. There were so many night terrors, she wasn’t sure where to start.

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Tealor watched she knew what she needed to do, or would ask if she was unsure. He pulled out his Padd and started a new entry for this session and reached out to see where she was emotionally.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

Mostly she felt a little trepidatious about starting. She always seemed so close to slipping back. She focused in on the last night terror she’d had. It had been…well not the worst memory she had certainly. It was bad enough. She could already feel her heart beginning to pound and race. “I feel lonely, hopeless. I can’t feel scared anymore. I feel dead.”

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Tealors voice was soft and melodic, “Describe what where you are , what you see, smell , feel” he asked she needed to address the events that caused the feelings just as much as the feelings themselves.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

Dradvia swallowed audibly. “Ummm. I’m… uh… I’m in Master’s rooms. It’s large with thick rugs and silk pillows. Everything is made of heavy wood and reinforced with tritanium. It smells…awful - sick.” She balks, not wanting to say why it smells so bad. “It has for awhile. It’s thick with smoke from the incense he’s burning. The smell makes me dizzy and hard to think.”

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

He tooks some notes and continued, “Is there anyone else with you? Has anyone just left?” he asked trying to get a sense of what was going on. He also left his connection to her open sensing what she was feeling so he could pull her out if it got out of control.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

Dradvia nodded not saying anything for a moment. “Master…” she licked her lips like they were dry. “Lokhar,” the name made her shiver, “is in the room with me. It’s hard to see because of the smoke and the lights are so low, but I can hear him walking around. I can hear his voice, but the smoke makes it hard to think. I don’t understand. I’m so thirsty. He wouldn’t let me have water. He just kept…” her eyes closed and then flew open. “He used a wet cloth on me.”

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

“Ensign?” he asked depending on what was happening that could mean several things he really did not need all the details. “Go ahead and start your tapping and breathing” he suggested.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

Dradvia tapped quietly trying to go slow, to count her breaths in and out. It was hard at first, like she couldn’t draw in that much air, and had to rush to get the next breath. She knew she could, she knew she was in Tessan’s office.

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Tealor new better than to compliment her at this point so he simply instructed. “Slow your breathing down and keep with the tapping” he said watching her and reaching out to see where she was emotionally.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

She kept tapping and tried to slow her breathing. Emotionally she was fragile. She was almost lost in the memory of those feelings. The hopelessness, the grief and guilt. There was something she’d done that made her accept whatever it was Lokhar was doing to her. And over all of that was a deadness. She’d given up and didn’t care what happened. She welcomed the pain as her karma.

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Tealor sat while she tried to dial in her feelings and her breathing it was a few moments before he spoke again, this time very softly. “Why the guilt ensign?” Tealor could not image what she could have done to warrent the feeling of guilt and acceptance of what hadd occurred to her at the time.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

A loud broken sob escaped her. Her whole body shook with grief. She wasn’t afraid of prison. She deserved it. She was afraid of being found in prison. The tapping stopped, her breaths coming in huge gasps. “I,” she sobbed, pulling her legs up, hugging them, and burying her face. “I killed Kryssa!”

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Tealor had been doing this long enough to know that there was much more to the story. “Will you tell me what happened” he asked, his voice empathetic and soft as he pushed a box of tissue toward her.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

She didn’t notice the tissues at all. She was curled tightly into the chair, in the ball she’d created. “That’s why he was punishing me, because I killed her. I stole the dagger and I cut her throat.” She sobbed uncontrollably.

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

Tealor looked at her taking in what she said, he did not react to it thought, he continued wanting to get to the bottom of what had happened. It seemed unlikely that she would kill someone who she loved so much without reason. “Why did you do that?” he asked and added. “If it’s easier I can see the events for myself” he offered.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine

She shook, the sobs wracking her body, but eerily silent now. He could see, see her guilt and maybe, finally, she would pay for what she’d done.

The memory played in vivid detail through Tessan’s mind.

Ens. Dradvia, Medical Officer

When the events played out in his mind, he could feel how much she loved Kryssa, the desperation in an unwinnable situation, the request of a friend to be set free the only way she could see, and Dradvia honoring that request. Tears flowed freely down his face as he now looked at her understanding the weight she had been shouldering and stuffing down inside. Tealor scooted around his desk bring his chair closer two her, he wanted to hug her to give her comfort, but that was more about what he needed than what she would want. In stead he simply removed the barrier of the desk to give her the option to approach him if she needed it.

“Dradvia” he said his voice soft and full of compassion himself still fighting back tears and sorrow. “You did what you had to do, there was no out” he said. “You love her , there was no malice in your heart, only love” he said.

Dr Tealor Tessan
Chief Medical Officer U.S.S Wolverine