Posted by Lieutenant Hannah Lori Asimina (Asst. Chief Medical Officer) in Complications and Simplicity

Posted by Lieutenant Tandra Mika (Counselor) in Complications and Simplicity

Posted by Lieutenant Hannah Lori Asimina (Asst. Chief Medical Officer) in Complications and Simplicity
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Jason and Hannah had talked about this. Their story and their…baby. Their life together. Ok’jiv knew something was up when Jason had identified himself. She took the care of her patients seriously and no one would get anything out of her. Alexis wouldn’t tell, and if she did, by accident, it would be so wrapped up in technical medical jargon no one else but her would understand.

Now she had to talk to Mika. And she really could use someone to just talk to. She pressed the chime and waited.

Hannah

The door opened and Mika smiled. “Hannah… I noticed your name on my roster for today. Come in.” She said, stepping aside and gesturing to a chair. Then she sat down as well. “How are you doing?”

~ Mika, CNS

Hannah smiled and sighed and…groaned. “Morning sickness sucks.” She moved over to a chair and sat down, wrapping her long sweater coat around her. “And I’m cold all the time.” She curled herself tiredly into the chair. “Something has happened and it’s wonderful, but I’m also, well, it’s a lot to adjust to.”

Hannah

Mika chuckled. “All pretty typical pregnancy stuff. You can always ask if you need something to help with it.” Then she gave Hannah a confused look, “Something wonderful? That sounds good. What happened?”

~ Mika, CNS

“Oh, I have asked. I have a hypo for it and a B12 supplement. I got hyperemesis gravidarum. I had to have a fluid infusion. The meds are helping a lot.”

Hannah pulled the sleeves of her sweater over her hands and tucked them under her arms. “Ummm…well,” Hannah blew out a breath, “You know about me and Daniel, about him being gone so long. Well, while he was gone, I met someone else. It only lasted a couple of months, but it just didn’t work long distance. We tried, but…” Hannah tucked a stray curl before covering her hands with her sweater again. “He ummm…Tandra it’s crazy. He came on board the Saracen the day before I left for Oed. We umm…well we reconnected,” Hannah grinned and blushed slightly. “He’s here on Oed now. Ummm…it’s his baby!” Hannah suddenly blurted it out in a hushed whisper and covered her face with a quiet laugh. But she sounded surprised, happy, and bewildered.

Hannah

“Oh!” Mika smiled a little bit, Hannah seemed happy but Mika was being cautious. “How are you feeling about the baby’s father not being Daniel?” She asked. “How are things going with your boyfriend?”

~ Mika, CNS

Hannah sighed, “Honestly, I think if it was anyone but Jason I would be upset it wasn’t Daniel’s. Also relieved. I don’t know how much Daniel told you about his work, and I’m not asking. But you did know the type of work he did.” Mika had to. She had to have had enough clearance for that at least to be stationed on the Saracen. “I was really afraid, you know, that his work would follow us. It is one thing for me to have to look over my shoulder, but my child too?” Hannah breathed deeply. “I mean I know that something could still happen, but I feel safer.”

Mika nodded. She “enjoyed” a higher clearance level due to needing to counsel the officers station on Saracen.... Sometimes, higher clearance wasn’t exactly a pleasant thing. “I knew the type of work he did, sure.” She said. That was the most she could say, and she knew Hannah knew that.

“Things are…well strange. I mean Jason is here, and I know there is emotional risk rushing into something else, but we are having a baby together. We are feeling things out, seeing where we are now, but we are connected now, no matter what. I…I have been staying with him the last few days. I was really sick because of the hyperemesis gravidarum and Dr Fayth gave me a few days off, and he asked me to stay until I felt better.”

Hannah

Mika nodded. “I’m glad some good came out of this news for you. I do hope you’ll be careful about rushing straight into something else so soon after… everything else, but if you’re doing okay, that’s what’s important. Staying with him is going alright? And how are you doing with everything else?” Of course, by everything else’ she meant the baby, the hyperemesis, Daniel’s disappearance, the transfer to Oed… All of those sorts of things.

~ Mika, CNS

“Well staying with him is…well I feel like a guest. That’s me and not him though. He has been wonderful. He wants me to move in with him, and that was before he knew about the baby. I have my own room or we share, it’s up to me. It’s hard to be ‘sensible’ about it. I have always been comfortable with him, and now with a baby. Staying with him has been easy. Jason doesn’t push, but he’s there. He got me to call my parents. I hadn’t told them yet.”

“Oh…everything else…I feel guilty being off because I was so sick. My transfer happened so fast because Dr Fayth needed me here. So I am making sure to take care of myself so it doesn’t happen again. I am enjoying the work though. I really like it here, even without Jason. Going to the ships and orbital stations and back to the planet is hard though. It really makes me nauseous.”

Mika nodded. “Take care of yourself and that baby first, Doctor Fayth can handle covering Medical. I help out too, sometimes.” She smiled, “I’m glad you’re liking it here, that’s good. It’ll make your transition easier. If the trips to the ships and orbital stations are too much, you can always ask to be left off them until you’re done with the pregnancy. I’m sure Fayth or I would do that for you.”

“Mika, I feel guilty about Daniel. I waited, well except for those months with Jason, five years for him. I know we talked a little when I first arrived, but I was angry, and maybe still a little, that he left like he did. But also…I couldn’t feel like I do about Jason, even just that one night where I was so…alone and just needed someone. I couldn’t have done that if I was still really in love with Daniel. I feel a lot of guilt and regret.”

Hannah

“Sometimes Starfleet and couples… Don’t really go together,” Mika replied, “We have to make choices for our careers, or because of the nature of our jobs, things… happen. Five years was a long time to wait for him. You can still love him, and still want to move on with your life.” She hoped that didn’t sound too cold.

~ Mika, CNS

“I know. It’s why it didn’t work out before with Jason and me.” Hannah sighed and sank sideways a bit, resting her head on the chair. “I’m having a hard time with it Mika. I waited and waited and it felt like it was all worth it when I found him again, but it wasn’t. Things had started changing and I knew that was always possible. I don’t think I had accepted that though.”

Mika nodded, listening, but with nothing to add. Just happy Hannah was talking through it.

“I know he was never going to put me before the job. I was okay with that, I knew that and now I am really angry at him for it. And I keep thinking what if he isn’t dead, and he is trying to get back to me and I’m not there?” Hannah looked over at her, “But he didn’t come back to me last time. He was done with his assignment, he had come back and he never reached out to me. He had been back 2 years before chance brought us back together. 2 years I didn’t have to wait for him. 2 years wasted!”

Hannah

“It isn’t worth waiting for someone who may not come back even if they can. I know you know that, but I also know sometimes hearing it helps. Would he have come back at all if it weren’t for chance bringing you back together? Being angry with him for that is a justified response. But don’t let it distract from what you have now.”

~ Mika, CNS