Posted by Civilian Kenzo B’tren-Hyrushi (Governor) in Friendship and Raw Fish

Posted by Captain Eela Dasca (Lt. Governor) in Friendship and Raw Fish

Posted by Civilian Kenzo B’tren-Hyrushi (Governor) in Friendship and Raw Fish
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Eela drank more heavily from her glass, letting the warmth spread through her. She laughed, partly at his question, partly at his earlier evasion turned back on her. “Ohhh, yes. But like so many things it feels more complicated these days. Before my accident I wouldn’t have hesitated. But now? You would think since the divorce I would relish the freedom and not having to factor Cory into the equation. I mean, I know myself and that because I have been through much these last few years that jumping into anything serious right away would be a mistake. Nor do I think I’m looking for a lone long-term partner. Been there, done that. It’s not where I’m at right now. So intimacy, companionship? Yes, that’s what I need. And yet I’m hesitant. Hell, I’d even say I’m scared and I’m not sure why exactly.”

She closed her eyes and just took a moment to let that feeling of being wanted, desired, wash over her. Her lips curled upwards into a smirk. “There’s possibly even an opportunity. Right now it’s just a flirtation, but one I’m greatly enjoying. It’s been a long time since I’ve felt like that.” She opened her eyes and took another sip. “I used to be fearless with my heart. I still believe as I always have that the heart has an infinite capacity for love in all its forms. And yet, I’m hesitating, not because of the person, but because of something with me I haven’t figured out. Aside from one night after I separated from Cory, there hasn’t been anyone since the Steadfast. Given what I’ve already told you about connection… it’s a long time for me. And yet, I’m stuck.”

~Eela

“Ah yes… Mr. Jones. He does seem to have a certain… interest… in you. Fortunately for him, it does seem to be reciprocated.” and he looked and smiled. “Just because my eyes are black doesn’t mean I’m blind, Eela.” and then he actually laughed. “You two are not nearly as subtle as you think… or probably wish.”

Kenzo

She gave a throaty laugh. “Its because we’re around a bunch of damn empaths.” Eela sighed. “I don’t mind, really, but I hate that I’m so hesitant. It’s not resistance, but something else. I don’t know if anything will happen, but I want it to. ” She emptied her glass and sighed.

~Eela

“You want it to. He wants it to. You are both intelligent, consenting adults capable of navigating the complexities of such a relationship.” He took a drink and then said “You are correct. Its not resistance. You are simply scared. As you said, it has been some time for you. The idea of the act scares you because it has become… unfamiliar.”

Kenzo

It sucked that he was so on the mark and and she shot him a disgruntled look before she chuckled. “Oh, that’s so true it’s painful.” Her hand moved towards her torso, her fingertips tracing the upper line of the brace through the sweater dress. It wasn’t just her brain that had changed, it was her body and her sense of it. It wasn’t the limitations per say but the uncertainty of how to navigate them. She had always been confident about her body, but if she were really honest she hadn’t given a lot of reasons to feel confident in it. The good days had been more numerous and stronger since they fixed the issue with her brace, but the bad days reminded her of the changes that were far more visible than the ones in her brain. “It’s so strange to feel so… uneasy with my body. I shouldn’t be, but I am.” The truth sat on her lips as sorrow swirled within her. “I guess I worry that it would be disappointing for myself and the other person.” That she would be disappointing.

~Eela