Posted by Lieutenant Sharah Fayth (Chief Star Fleet Medical Officer) in Starfleet Complex- Senior Staff Meeting

Posted by Captain Eela Dasca (Lt. Governor) in Starfleet Complex- Senior Staff Meeting

Posted by Lieutenant Sharah Fayth (Chief Star Fleet Medical Officer) in Starfleet Complex- Senior Staff Meeting

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Sharah shook her head with a soft grin. “If you leave it there, yes it can become a crutch. But we can actually set your brace to a rotation. Start and end the day on your normal strength, but let it increase during the day and then gently bring you back. The braces are extremely versatile. And we both know that Jal’na will never let you get away with using your brace as a crutch. You wouldn’t have to use the higher setting unless you need it. Up to you.”

Fayth, SFCMO

The wave of overwhelm was hard to push away. She could make all kinds of difficult decisions and she had. Eela Dasca was not one who shied away from making seemingly impossible decisions when they were external to herself. It wasn’t that they were easy but it always felt clearer to her. Leaning against the table she felt paralyzed by fear. She knew if she didn’t take care of herself she physically wouldn’t be able to do her job, but she was playing the game of appearances too. The last thing she needed was media speculation about her fitness for the job entrusted to her. Which led her right back to that terrible feeling of not being good enough. Uggh, Sharah was right that she’d need to find herself a therapist sooner rather than later.

“I don’t know,” Eela whispered. It was hard to admit, but what else could she say.

~Eela Dasca, Lt. Gov.

Sharah waited. She knew Eela’s reservations, they had spoken about them a bit. Sharah felt Eela was being far too hard on herself and using ‘appearances’ to avoid dealing with things she either didn’t want to see or wasn’t ready to deal with. But that was speculation, Sharah was no counselor, nor qualified. Sharah reached out and squeezed Eela’s hand again. “That’s okay, you don’t have to know right now. Just know there are avenues we can explore if you want to. You don’t have to decide now. I’ll have Reesa bring the portable heating pad with her today.” She put the things away in the kit and closed it, returning it to his storage space. “I won’t keep you, I just wanted to see how you were doing.”

Fayth, SFCMO

She nodded and Eela inhaled a steadying breath. “I appreciate it. I suppose I just have to get used to people seeing and interacting with me on off days. I kind of got away with it with the Diplomatic Corps. The missions changed and so did the people I worked with. So if I was off on one assignment, it rarely trickled over to another. But here? It’s hard to escape that feeling of always being watched, if being under a microscope. Maybe it’ll go away or maybe I’ll just get used to it, but… it’s a factor right now. And one I didn’t fully anticipate. So thank you, for noticing, but in a way that doesn’t make me feel terrible,” Eela said with a warm, if tired smile.

~Eela Dasca, Lt. Gov.