Posted by Commander Roman Alden (First Officer & Chief Science Officer) in side - sim: Paying for Our Sins

Posted by Ensign Rand Farquharson (Yeoman First Class) in side - sim: Paying for Our Sins

Posted by Commander Roman Alden (First Officer & Chief Science Officer) in side - sim: Paying for Our Sins
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He always tried to reassure her, and she knew under normal circumstances there would be no accidents. There were no improvements from last year, and Rand felt that if she and Randy weren’t there to remind him, things would be worse. “Okay.” She was quiet for a minute watching the movie then very quietly with a thread of nervousness, “If you have a nightmare I’m giving you the hypo.”

Rand

Roman looked down at her, giving her one of his looks. “You would have to call Randy to dose it for me, I usually need more than you.” He commented. The idea made him a little nervous, though obviously Randy already knew about the nightmares. It still bothered him for some reason.

~ Roman

Rand nodded. She has already thought of that weeks ago. But she would call Randy again to make sure she wasn’t remembering wrong. She hated that, that she couldn’t trust her memory anymore. “That’s okay. He’s right next door. I can go ask him now, just in case, and then he doesn’t have to know if you needed it or not.”

Rand

“I always have them.” Roman said. She could probably feel his arm and body tense against her. He felt cornered talking about something he didn’t want to talk about, and conflicted over two options he didn’t like. Another night of not sleeping, and after a day like today… It was going to be a long night. Or meds which… He also didn’t like. “I just- I don’t-” he let out a long sigh and looked at her again. “I don’t know.”

~ Roman

“Okay.” She tucked her head back onto his shoulder and turned her attention back to the movie. She’d asked and offered, and she’d told him what she was going to do. There was no need to push him and make him more upset. He had to know though she wasn’t going to go to sleep and leave him alone with his nightmares.

Rand

Roman turned to watch the movie too. After a while he started to relax back into his spot. He was still having a hard time with his feelings from earlier, about Jay and the jiu jitsu, but he was trying to focus on the movie to get away from it. The credits were rolling when he turned to look at her again and noticed she was still awake, “Miranda, you should be going to sleep soon, you have duty tomorrow.”

~ Roman

Rand was comfortable and relaxed as she enjoyed the rest of the movie, as best she could anyway. She was tired, but she was not sleepy or exhausted. Until she knew Roman was asleep, she wouldn’t. She knew it wasn’t good to stay awake all night with her concussion not completely healed yet. That didn’t stop her from staying awake with him and getting up when he woke with a nightmare. Of course that wasn’t the only reason she wasn’t sleepy. “Yeah I know....but it’s hard to sleep after…well..” the rest rushed out in a whisper “allyouwerewearingwasatowel.” That was not what she had intended to say; therefore, she totally embarrassed herself.

Rand

Roman paused and looked down at her, the smallest of grins on his face for the first time that night. “If my wearing nothing but a towel is so disruptive, perhaps I should take care to cover up better?” He cuddled up closer to her, tightening his arm around her, trying to make her comfortable. Then he started rubbing her back slow and gently. He knew how to try and make her sleep.

~ Roman

“No!” Her face turned red and she hid it in his shoulder where her voice was muffled. “I wasn’t complaining.” Then he was hugging her, holding her tight and his hand started moving over her back. She sighed deeply, relaxing, scooting around until she was comfortable. She knew what he was doing and muttered through a yawn. “That’s not fair.”

Rand

Roman reached to the side table and got the hypo out of the drawer and gave it to her, then set the hypo back down. Then he resumed the slow, relaxing back rub, keeping her tight against him. When she hid her face against him and said she wasn’t complaining he smiled again, “Good.” His voice was soft, he was also trying to make it relaxing. He knew she would want to stay up with him but it wasn’t good for her. “Maybe not, but…” Roman shrugged, “you need your sleep too.”

~ Roman

Rand felt the hypo press against her neck and she held still while he gave her the medicine. She honestly wasn’t sure she needed it anymore, but when she had asked Randy, he had told her to take more time. She was still working through the memories and had moments of confusion, mild but still there. Of course she had missed a couple sessions with him because she was still mad at him.

Roman said she needed her sleep. She knew fighting him about it was only going to make him feel bad and worry. She sighed, it was supposed to sound exasperated but instead it just sounded content as he started rubbing her back again. He also sounded far too happy about her saying it wasn’t fair. “You need sleep too, and I have been sleeping fine.” He made sure she did. Even on the days she was too anxious to fall asleep easily, he made sure. She supposed if it helped him be less worried she could pretend to be asleep. She could rest quietly until she knew he would be asleep too. She slipped an arm around him and squeezed him tight. Then her hand slid over his heart and started those small movements she always did before she would fall asleep.

Rand

Roman didn’t want to go to sleep, he knew how that would go. But Rand must have convinced him she was asleep because his body relaxed next to her and he let out a long breath as she squeezed him. Then her hand settled on his chest and the small movements of it across his skin seemed to help relax him and before long like it or not he was asleep too, cuddled in against her.

It was an hour and a half or so before the nightmare started. Roman’s body jerked hard in his sleep and he groaned softly and cried a whimpered ‘no’. Then started the twitching of his limbs and restlessness as the groans, whimpers, and cries continued, his sweat beginning to dampen her shirt as he was still pressed against her.

~ Roman

By the time Roman had finally fell asleep Rand had been dozing lightly. When his arms had relaxed around her she knew he was asleep and she drifted off. When he said ‘No’ she woke instantly. Even though it was soft the room was so quiet she heard it. Trying not to disturb him she carefully pushed up on one arm and reached for the hypo that Roman had set aside. She remembered Randy told her that the first dose would be 2ml to her 1 because of his metabolism rate. She laid back down to keep from waking him and using one hand dialed the dose. She placed the tip to his arm and pressed the button. She heard the soft hiss and then putting it aside she wrapped her arms around him and murmured quietly. Once he seemed calmer she would call Randy.

Rand

When she propped herself up Roman’s hands grabbed onto her shirt but she still had the mobility she needed to get the hypo. It was a bad nightmare, usually after one like this he would jerk awake, shaking and crying, and it would take a long time to calm him. It took the meds several minutes to take effect, then the cries and moans became further in between, the twitching beginning to slow as he started to calm. He still felt tense as a rock in her arms, but it seemed better than before she’d given him the meds.

~ Roman

Rand had no idea how long it would take for the meds to completely take effect. No one told her how long it took for her therefore she had no point of reference. So the minutes seemed hours. Several times she started to reach for her comm only to look at the clock and realize it hadn’t been but short minutes. Finally he seemed to be calming down. Still he seemed too tense to be restfully asleep. She reached for her comm and quietly paged Randy.

He came in without a sound. Mostly what he was checking for was to make sure the dose was correct (it was), and it wasn’t lowering his blood pressure to much and there were no signs of allergic reaction. He set up the tricorder to monitor and Rand would page him again if it went off. After 20 minutes he slipped out just as quietly.

There were no signs of allergic or negative reactions, but his blood pressure did drop, enough he might have side effects but not so low they needed to worry. During the 20 minutes Randy was there Roman finished relaxing, his breaths evening out, the twitching and groaning stopping, and finally, some of the tension releasing from his body.

During the whole process Rand had reached over and taken Roman’s hand and was squeezing it in rhythm with her breath. She didn’t know if it would help while he slept, but she didn’t know what else to do.

Rand

Her touch seemed to help in the way it always did. When he had calmed and started sleeping more restfully, he rolled into her, his other arm settling around her. Then he slept, without interruption.

~ Roman

Once he seemed to relax, Rand was able to lay back down without worry. Not that she had much choice in laying down. When he rolled over and put his arm around, her she got pulled in close to him and made to lay back down. It made her smile slightly in the dark. She fell back asleep herself not long after that.

Rand

Roman slept hard the rest of the night. Uninterrupted, peaceful sleep. Whether he would be angry about it or not in the morning it was obvious he needed it because he didn’t wake when Rand’s alarm went off first, nor when his own went off a little later. He had hardly moved all night.

~ Roman

Rand had woken with her alarm and turned it off quickly when she realized Roman hadn’t woken up. She let him sleep rather than wake him to go for a walk with her. She returned the tricorder to Randy before she went for her walk. She didn’t walk far just a couple laps around their deck. It felt good to stretch, but she didn’t want to be gone when he woke up.

He was still asleep when she returned. It had been hard to just walk and not jog or run. Rand didn’t want to do anything to make people worry though. They might make her stop her walks if she did. She also would feel horribly guilty for making them worry. So she was very careful to keep her pace to a walk.

She sat down at the desk and tried to get ahead on her work for the day, and also took care of Pipkin - refilling her water, food, and hay. The bunny sat on her lap while she worked.

Then Roman’s alarm went off. Rand let sound for a minute, but he didn’t move. She was tempted to rearrange his schedule, but she wouldn’t do that. Instead she went over and sat beside him, crossed her arms over his chest and leaned forward to kiss him awake.

Rand

Roman stirred slightly when she sat on the bed next to him, but he did not wake until she had been kissing him a moment. It was a pleasant way to wake, with her lips gently against his. His eyes popped open and he started to kiss her back, unaware what day or time it was. He felt relaxed and he looked better rested than he had been.

~ Roman

Rand smiled as he started to kiss her back. She was in no rush and was content to take their time. Eventually though, she knew she needed to at least let him know what time it was. She pulled back just slightly grinning at him. Her lilt feathered out, “Good morning.”

Rand