Posted by Ensign Rand Farquharson (Yeoman First Class) in side - sim: Paying for Our Sins

Posted by Commander Roman Alden (First Officer & Chief Science Officer) in side - sim: Paying for Our Sins

Posted by Ensign Rand Farquharson (Yeoman First Class) in side - sim: Paying for Our Sins
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He always tried to reassure her, and she knew under normal circumstances there would be no accidents. There were no improvements from last year, and Rand felt that if she and Randy weren’t there to remind him, things would be worse. “Okay.” She was quiet for a minute watching the movie then very quietly with a thread of nervousness, “If you have a nightmare I’m giving you the hypo.”

Rand

Roman looked down at her, giving her one of his looks. “You would have to call Randy to dose it for me, I usually need more than you.” He commented. The idea made him a little nervous, though obviously Randy already knew about the nightmares. It still bothered him for some reason.

~ Roman

Rand nodded. She has already thought of that weeks ago. But she would call Randy again to make sure she wasn’t remembering wrong. She hated that, that she couldn’t trust her memory anymore. “That’s okay. He’s right next door. I can go ask him now, just in case, and then he doesn’t have to know if you needed it or not.”

Rand

“I always have them.” Roman said. She could probably feel his arm and body tense against her. He felt cornered talking about something he didn’t want to talk about, and conflicted over two options he didn’t like. Another night of not sleeping, and after a day like today… It was going to be a long night. Or meds which… He also didn’t like. “I just- I don’t-” he let out a long sigh and looked at her again. “I don’t know.”

~ Roman

“Okay.” She tucked her head back onto his shoulder and turned her attention back to the movie. She’d asked and offered, and she’d told him what she was going to do. There was no need to push him and make him more upset. He had to know though she wasn’t going to go to sleep and leave him alone with his nightmares.

Rand

Roman turned to watch the movie too. After a while he started to relax back into his spot. He was still having a hard time with his feelings from earlier, about Jay and the jiu jitsu, but he was trying to focus on the movie to get away from it. The credits were rolling when he turned to look at her again and noticed she was still awake, “Miranda, you should be going to sleep soon, you have duty tomorrow.”

~ Roman

Rand was comfortable and relaxed as she enjoyed the rest of the movie, as best she could anyway. She was tired, but she was not sleepy or exhausted. Until she knew Roman was asleep, she wouldn’t. She knew it wasn’t good to stay awake all night with her concussion not completely healed yet. That didn’t stop her from staying awake with him and getting up when he woke with a nightmare. Of course that wasn’t the only reason she wasn’t sleepy. “Yeah I know....but it’s hard to sleep after…well..” the rest rushed out in a whisper “allyouwerewearingwasatowel.” That was not what she had intended to say; therefore, she totally embarrassed herself.

Rand

Roman paused and looked down at her, the smallest of grins on his face for the first time that night. “If my wearing nothing but a towel is so disruptive, perhaps I should take care to cover up better?” He cuddled up closer to her, tightening his arm around her, trying to make her comfortable. Then he started rubbing her back slow and gently. He knew how to try and make her sleep.

~ Roman

“No!” Her face turned red and she hid it in his shoulder where her voice was muffled. “I wasn’t complaining.” Then he was hugging her, holding her tight and his hand started moving over her back. She sighed deeply, relaxing, scooting around until she was comfortable. She knew what he was doing and muttered through a yawn. “That’s not fair.”

Rand

Roman reached to the side table and got the hypo out of the drawer and gave it to her, then set the hypo back down. Then he resumed the slow, relaxing back rub, keeping her tight against him. When she hid her face against him and said she wasn’t complaining he smiled again, “Good.” His voice was soft, he was also trying to make it relaxing. He knew she would want to stay up with him but it wasn’t good for her. “Maybe not, but…” Roman shrugged, “you need your sleep too.”

~ Roman

Rand felt the hypo press against her neck and she held still while he gave her the medicine. She honestly wasn’t sure she needed it anymore, but when she had asked Randy, he had told her to take more time. She was still working through the memories and had moments of confusion, mild but still there. Of course she had missed a couple sessions with him because she was still mad at him.

Roman said she needed her sleep. She knew fighting him about it was only going to make him feel bad and worry. She sighed, it was supposed to sound exasperated but instead it just sounded content as he started rubbing her back again. He also sounded far too happy about her saying it wasn’t fair. “You need sleep too, and I have been sleeping fine.” He made sure she did. Even on the days she was too anxious to fall asleep easily, he made sure. She supposed if it helped him be less worried she could pretend to be asleep. She could rest quietly until she knew he would be asleep too. She slipped an arm around him and squeezed him tight. Then her hand slid over his heart and started those small movements she always did before she would fall asleep.

Rand

Roman didn’t want to go to sleep, he knew how that would go. But Rand must have convinced him she was asleep because his body relaxed next to her and he let out a long breath as she squeezed him. Then her hand settled on his chest and the small movements of it across his skin seemed to help relax him and before long like it or not he was asleep too, cuddled in against her.

It was an hour and a half or so before the nightmare started. Roman’s body jerked hard in his sleep and he groaned softly and cried a whimpered ‘no’. Then started the twitching of his limbs and restlessness as the groans, whimpers, and cries continued, his sweat beginning to dampen her shirt as he was still pressed against her.

~ Roman

By the time Roman had finally fell asleep Rand had been dozing lightly. When his arms had relaxed around her she knew he was asleep and she drifted off. When he said ‘No’ she woke instantly. Even though it was soft the room was so quiet she heard it. Trying not to disturb him she carefully pushed up on one arm and reached for the hypo that Roman had set aside. She remembered Randy told her that the first dose would be 2ml to her 1 because of his metabolism rate. She laid back down to keep from waking him and using one hand dialed the dose. She placed the tip to his arm and pressed the button. She heard the soft hiss and then putting it aside she wrapped her arms around him and murmured quietly. Once he seemed calmer she would call Randy.

Rand

When she propped herself up Roman’s hands grabbed onto her shirt but she still had the mobility she needed to get the hypo. It was a bad nightmare, usually after one like this he would jerk awake, shaking and crying, and it would take a long time to calm him. It took the meds several minutes to take effect, then the cries and moans became further in between, the twitching beginning to slow as he started to calm. He still felt tense as a rock in her arms, but it seemed better than before she’d given him the meds.

~ Roman