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“A new life, another start. I do apologise for not having had the opportunity to read your file. But then again, it gives me the chance to see you fresh and not through someone else’s eyes,” Ever said taking a long sip of cold water. The vase was one that had belonged to her mother and was specially formed to keep liquid cold longer. The tall sleek blue vase had been purchased while her parents had been on their honeymoon on Alpha Centauri. One of only three items Ever had brought from Betazoid, it was the only thing of her mother’s she had kept. 

“Happy is good. How do you see your role as a security officer in a way that helps? I mean beyond the normal and obvious of keeping the ship and crew safe,” Ever said titling her head sideways slightly, allowing her long black hair to fall forward over her shoulder. Not taking her dark eyes from him, he held her complete attention. 

Lt Commander Ever Zeanar, CoP

The watchful eyes of the ensign inspected Ever closely as she drank. At her query, he somehow straightened up despite his already excellent posture. “Commander, I’ve put a lot of evil in the world in my past. That ended when I… When I…” The man’s thumb gently massaged the spots along his temple, threatening to rub the blots away, each barely visible against his already dark skin.

High level of awareness of her movements, did not go unnoticed by the counsellor. How much of one’s person was directed by that, guided by fear and inner madness if not mindful  of watching too long. Matched with equal alertness her own dark gaze lingered towards the place on his face unchanged by touch. Forcing herself to wait for another response, not rushing for a quick solution, Ever sat silently. 

As he paused he pressed his eyes shut and moments later the hand bearing his stroking thumb fell into his lap. His serene gaze rose back to meet Zeanar’s. “That became my past when a was reborn.” His voice had risen in his throat, assuming a more feminine resonance. “Ralin wis replaced by Ralin Tell but Ralin is still in here.” A finger launched to meet his head in a point yet landed lightly, barely if at all making contact.

What infinite number of combinations, born and reborn had this man, this woman.....no these beings.... lived and died? One lifetime carrying into the next, alive with new lips to kiss new loves,  new hopes and dreams, young and beautiful to old and fragile, cycling back again. Each life torn apart and put back together again, leaving the next random vessel unhinged with aching memories and thoughts not one’s own. 

The sudden motion shook the man back to his previous manner. “A’ll never make right on that past. But standing for those who need it most… that I can. This is the place to find the needers. A lucky assignment, for me.”

Ensign Ralin Tell - Security

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“Regret might be counterproductive, but convincing ourselves not to listen to our hearts can lead to an unbreakable cycle of over thinking and unhappiness. It can overshadow pleasure and hold us back from fulfilling our potential. As much as we might like to think we can out run the bad with good deeds, that just isn’t as possible as it seems it should be,” Ever said leaning back and crossing one leg over the other. She gently rocked her foot, choosing her words. “I think it is commendable that you have a higher purpose of serving others and I would really like to help you achieve everything you want Ensign. Though I am sure the Academy went through your past, I get the feeling it’s still lingering. If you are willing, I think together we can fuse and heal the rifts between past and present.” 

Zeanar, CoP