Posted by Lieutenant Commander Zoi Haven (Chief of Security) in Counselling Suite - Shadows Are Not Immune To Light

Posted by Captain Dira Myqian (Commanding Officer) in Counselling Suite - Shadows Are Not Immune To Light

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For several long moments there was no answer from Dira, just the sound of her forcing herself to take long, even breaths. She wanted desperately to tell Mariah that she was wrong, that that wasn’t how she felt, but when the words tried to bubble to the surface she couldn’t say them.

Finally, she lifted her head and wiped at her tears. “I’ve just been doing my best to put one foot in front of the other. Captain Taylor was called away so soon after and then I was Acting Captain. I had to keep it together, for the ship and crew. And then the promotion.” She shook her head. “I’ve worked so hard! I won’t let William take this from me. He’s taken too much already,” she spat, not even trying to hide the loathing and vehemence. “And if us meeting will help, then of course I will.” She was a practical woman after all. And a Doctor of Psychiatry. She knew there was hard work ahead of her.

Captain Myqian, CO

Bump

Zoi let Dira take the lead as to when she moved away. She didn’t feel upset at the sudden space between them. She felt proud that Dira had opened up and she was solidly her own person even in light of heavy trauma. She had not known the assault fact that the Counselor spoke of but it made sense to her. Control was a slippery thing. She often internally blamed herself for not noticing Diras distress or even her absence sooner. Deep down, she knew it wasn’t her fault, but the intrusive thought still remained and probably would for some time.

Haven,CoS

The appointment wrapped up and the pair stepped out into the corridor. Dira stood a little taller than before but her mind was awhirl, traipsing over her revelations and trying to figure out what to do with everything. “You know, in some ways I was thinking like Royal had, that the worst case scenario hadn’t happened so it wasn’t a big deal. But I couldn’t let it go, especially once that nightmare started.” She spoke softly to Zoi as they walked and she wasn’t even sure where she was headed. A turbolift most likely, but after that? Who knew.

Captain Myqian, CO

She could tell Diras mind was a buzz of thoughts . It seemed she was fleshing out her revelations to make them fir into boxes. “Dreams are often a way of telling ourselves something needs attention within us. Trauma is still trauma even if it wasn’t the worst trauma that could have happened.”

Wherever Dira wanted to go, they would go. Zoi would follow her as she wandered, letting her speak through the logic.

Haven, CoS

She could feel that edge sharp edge of terror pressing against her mind as the dream nightmare rose to the surface of her thoughts. “I suppose I should be grateful in a way, because it brought other things to the surface, but”-she suppressed a shudder-“the thought of that potential life with him makes me ill, Zoi. I haven’t known how to talk about it. I wanted it to not be a big deal, but it was like the more I tried to convince myself everything was over, the more I had the dream.”

Dira approached the lift and pressed the call button.

Captain Myqian, CO