Posted by Commander Dira Myqian (Executive Officer) in Ready Room- Work & Life

Posted by Captain Willow Taylor (Commanding Officer) in Ready Room- Work & Life

Posted by Commander Dira Myqian (Executive Officer) in Ready Room- Work & Life

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Willow wasn’t a natural rule breaker, this Dira knew, so between the proffered glass and the shifting emotions in the other woman Dira understood that her story had packed a punch. “Shh! Don’t tell the crew,” she said, her brows shifting against her forehead ridges and bulges, the corners of her mouth tugging upwards.

“I won’t if you don’t.” She said back slightly
More seriously than she intended.

As her fingers slid around the smooth glass, gripping with intent, Dira knew that she was at a tipping point in her career, a place where she would have to make decisions so she could move forward. But that was why she was here, talking to Willow. The liquor slipped down her throat with nary a burn, smooth as hell. “Good whiskey,” she said, the glass hitting the desk with a small thud. “Reminds me of the stuff my maternal grandfather used to drink. Something about a Human diplomat he worked with introducing him to scotch.”

“It was a gift from an old friend and mentor.” Willow said picking up the bottle and turning it in her hand thoughtfully.

Inhaling deeply to steady herself, Dira fixed her ebony eyes on Willow. “When Bonner’s situation began to unravel and the security breach became something we needed to deal with, I froze, Willow. And when it became clear that Intelligence was involved, suddenly it was like I couldn’t breath, couldn’t feel. I couldn’t tell what was the past and what was now. I didn’t even know until I tried to talk to Bonner one-on-one just how triggered I was. She was right, I was reading her, but not the way she thought. All I was thinking was that I couldn’t let another innocent person get caught up in the schemes of others, but when they presented their solution I was torn between my oaths to Starfleet and my oath as a doctor that I still believe in. And now that my head is clearer I can breath again, but I’m still torn. And Paige hovers in my mind in ways I know aren’t helpful. Séan and I are dealing with it, but… this is my first command position. It was supposed to be the first true test of this new path and I can’t help but feel I’m failing. I tried to explain this to Kane but I didn’t have the words. I’m okay with being seen as fallible, it isn’t that. This isn’t about ego, but I’m worried about freezing again when I need to be calm and clear-headed.”

Commander Myqian, XO

“You cant assume a you are failing if you have decided what the test is what the grading criteria is and all that yourself.” She laughed slightly “I guess we all feel like that but in that situation I don’t blame you for reacting how you did. You are an excellent first officer, possibly the best I have had. And trust me I’ve seen a few!”

Willow Taylor
CO

Myqian frowned. Taylor was being truthful, that much she knew, but sometimes it was hard to see that perspective. “So… bear with me and my cloudy mind right now., but explain? I guess I just need something of a reality check, Willow, and I highly value your opinion, especially when it comes to myself.”

Commander Myqian, XO

Thoughtfully Willow said “You’re point was that you have sat some sort of test and have failed it. But that’s because you’re colouring the parameters with your view of failure. You’ve decided that it was a test and that you didn’t meet the criteria to pass it. But I’m curious, in your mind what would have been a pass in that situation?”

Willow Taylor
CO