Posted by Lieutenant Casela Synthi-er (Counsellor / RTF) in side-sim No Rest for the Wicked

Posted by Commander Ryder Raauhl (Executive Officer) in side-sim No Rest for the Wicked

Posted by Lieutenant Casela Synthi-er (Counsellor / RTF) in side-sim No Rest for the Wicked
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Casela had just finished another long shift. All of Alpha shift, and even with her staff working full shifts, they weren’t done with crew evals. Plus her extra responsibilities of advising the captain. She was pessimistically happy about the captain though. The longer they were on board and headed for their mission the more confident he was becoming, and she could now see why command had chosen him for this position. She just had to make him see it.

And the hours of training with RTF was grewling. Of course that was her fault. Manhattan had a point to prove to her, and so she’d had to make a point to him. Not to mention that sad and demeaning pep talk he’d given the team, about going easy on her and don’t scare her away. Her Betazoid talents prevented her from simply listening. She tended to be too aggresive. Throwbacks to her time in the resistance and being alone on too many missions. She’d just finished her last training with them for the week. She was sore, tired, and thirsty. Maybe not in that order though. And damn Ryder for showing up at the first and starting Irida’s tongue wagging. Now she kept inwardly flinching every time the door opened, hoping and dreading, that he’d shown up again. And Irida gossiped too much and for some reason the love lives of the senior staff were her favorite topic. Cobb apparently had a thing for his Yoeman, which was absurd if you actually knew Cobb, Ryder had regular late night rendevious with Doc Fey, (which made Casela realize she had a jelous streak she hadn’t had before, damn that man), and the things she said Manhattan was up to were just absurd. She’d put Irida through her paces for 2 hours while the others worked, just to shut the woman up for 5 minutes.

Casela took the turbolift down to the counseling deck. No one looked for her down there, so she was pretty sure to be left alone, and not be found by anyone that she didn’t feel like talking to. She used one of the patient quarters to shower and change, black gi pants and a black fitted t-shirt. She silently moved down the hall to a room set up for meditation. Soft light, thick floor pillows, candles and incense for those who needed. And plenty of objects to use to focus one’s attention. Casela sent Fenrir to his maintence bay for more updates and to recharge. He’d find her later, when he was done. She sat down on a cushion and closed her eyes.

T’Jal sat outside, she’d come to visit T’Jal after her last mission. She was filled with rage and had dodged S31 for weeks to get there, to Norda 3. Jake Smith, T’Jal’s husband had been outside when she arrived, greeting her with a warm hug. He’d then waved her towards the barn like building towards the back of the property. T’Jal was waiting for her. But instead of letting Casela work her aggression out, she’d made her sit down and have tea, of all things! “Ah Casela, your heart be too heavy for this work anymore. They never should have recruited ya. It’s too late for that now, though. What are you going to do about it? You can disappear, you’ve got the training, but you’ll be running your whole life. And in the end you are still living the life you hate.” T’Jal shrugged. It was a life she had been prepared to live at one point. “One day, you will meet a crew, star fleet or not, space ship, colony, starbase, planet, it doesn’t matter. You will meet them, and they will, without warning, become family to you. It won’t make any sense, but they will all suddenly be very important to you. It happened to most of us. It took longer for F’actar and me. But the Dresden was that family for us.”

Casela shook her head, “I have family, back on Betazed. I don’t need another family. I want to go home to them.”

T’Jal shook her head at Casela, “That’s what you want, but not what you need. This family will be what you need. It will be hard, and leaving this kind of work, even when you want to leave, is hard. The habits stay with you and trust is hard in coming. It’s worth it though.” Casela rolled her eyes, “Hey girly, I can still teach you a lesson or 20. No disrespect in this place. You remember?” Casela nodded. “Good. Now you’re welcome to stay as long as you need. The gym is here for your use.”

Lt Synthi-er, CNS

A week had passed and still, neither he and Casela had spoken about what had happened, with the Paulsan nebula less than 24 hours away. Having used the ship’s systems to pinpoint her location Ryder decided to track and hunt her down, unsurprisingly she was one of the meditation rooms alone. He had considered not disrupting her but if he didn’t his own thoughts would tear him apart and what kind of counselor would she be if she didn’t help him!

Pausing at the door he took in a deep breath and entered. “Casela?” He called out the light was dim, as was the mediation rooms usual setting.

• Commander Ryder, XO

All at once her memory and her present collided in a spectacular collision. Although physically she didn’t move, her eyes snapped open her gaze locking with his. She sighed very softly to herself. This wasn’t a complication she was ready to handle at the moment. Then again she never handled her own complications; she just moved on, literally. She stood smoothly, thankful her rubs had finally healed, despite the daily battering that was RTF training.

She wasn’t sure if she should call him Rauuhl or Ryder. She didn’t care for rank, ever, and she wasn’t starting this conversation, whatever it was about, as his subordinate. But her thought of a week before of course I used your first name came back to her. “Yes, Ryder?”

Lt. Synthi-er, CNS

He studied her, his eyes locked with hers and all he could think was how beautiful she was. “You’ve been avoiding me, and well avoiding what happened. ” He sighed heavily before adding. “I’m going to sound so cliche but we need to talk” The Trill officer walked slowly towards her, he had seen what those hands could do but the drive of what her lips could do carried his weight as the gap between them diminished.

• Commander Ryder, XO

Casela wanted to sound very stern, but her eyes laughed, “Avoiding? I would call it more of a strategic evasion. I don’t know what you’ve been doing, but I have been very busy.” She’d even managed to create work for herself. Casela resisted the urge to step back as he entered her space, rather she shifted her weight, balancing out his own stance, almost like a dance. His eyes gave away exactly what he was thinking–the same thing she was. She knew exactly what he wanted to talk about, but it was so easy to irritate him. “I haven’t finished with the crew evaluations yet, but if you want to start going over them, that is certainly your prerogative.” She watched his face very carefully. She knew how fast he could move, and though it was fun to irritate him to a point, she had no desire to go rounds with him again.
Lt. Synthi-er, CNS

“You’re trying to get a rise from me, it won’t work. ” He said crossing his arms, it might have worked over a week ago. A week ago he would have maybe shouted, scoffed or just walked away but today he was different and whether she would like to admit it or not they were different. “How have you been, besides busy of course? Since you seem to be trying to strageicallt avoid me I’ve noticed your schedules grow. Even during out of hours.”

• Commander Ryder, XO