Posted by Lieutenant Casela Synthi-er (Counsellor / RTF) in Lounge Cas and Luna talk (alt timeline)

Posted by Ensign Luna (Security Officer /RTF) in Lounge Cas and Luna talk (alt timeline)

Luna had finally gotten some free time cerenity was in bed fast asleep and she could go to the lounge for some adult time. She had sent the consuler an invite but did not expect her to come it was late and Casela had her own responsibilities.

Luna walked over to one of the replicators ordering a glass of sprite. Something she would never drink when cerenity was around. The child was hyper enough as it was with out a drink that was mostly shuger. She found a quiet corner of the lounge that had a good view of the window. She watched the stars outside and enjoyed her drink.
Ensign Luna

Casela had gotten the invite but couldn’t attend till 2300. That’s when RTF training ended. A few minutes later Casela entered the lounge with the rest of the RTF operatives. Their little team training had grown to include so many more. But she walked in talking and laughing with Lihew, who suddenly received a very strong punch to his Klingon gut for something he said. He laughed uproarisly but backed off. Niven (Vulcan) and her husband Uj’aw (Klingon) shook heads and found a corner booth to sit alone together. Irida glanced around with a huge smile calling to the bar tender for drinks and dragging several people with her. Trainor was quiet and stoic at the same time. Looking for a quiet booth for himself and a guest Casela knew would be arriving soon. She went to the bar and got a water with lime from Tock, the bar tender, and then turned and made her way through the throng of people. All tired, exhausted from the hard work, but still friends. The noise in the lounge was over bearing. But Cas had an hour to kill till Ryder got off shift. She looked around, found Luna and walked over taking a seat. “How are you doing tonight, Luna?”
Lt. Synthi-er, CNS

” tired but ok how are you” Luna asked she took a sip of her drink. Truth be told she was not ready to go to sleep yet reliving her past was not fun. She smiled as she looked at Cas. ” This ship is beautiful but a little to clean makes me think of a laboratory” she said a shiver ran through her and she opened her wings slightly befor closing them again. She looked around scanning faces.

” im sorry, I end up reliving the past in my dreams a little to often” she apologized. There were something things that were hard to think about. ” im sure you have you far share of horror ” Luna said. She watched cas there was a fragile trust there one that would easily be broken but for now Luna was trying to trust Cas.
Ensign Luna

Casela nodded, “Exhausted. But it was a good training session.” She looked around, “Yeah it can seem too clean, but there is very little to do for fun around here so the crews tend to go on cleaning sprees for something to do.” Casela nodded, “It’s our minds’ way of dealing with things we can’t handle in the present. There are meds that can help with that if you want to try. Dr. Knox is very good. Or maybe McHarrie, I understand he was on Viking as well. If you would prefer someone you know. Or there is always the meditation room on the counseling deck.” She offered in a very easy way, not pushing, just simply responding to what Luna had said. It would be up to Luna to choose what worked for her. “Or maybe a book till you fall asleep. Our dreams are often influenced by the last thing our brain processed.”
Lt. Synthi-er, CNS

Luna tensed at the mention of meds. ” no thanks, as I got older they used meds in an attempt to control me” she said but posed to consider the other options . ” how did you end up in section 31? I was given two them when I was 3 years old. Mom just handed me over to the” she said she was trying to figure out the women infront of her.
Ensign Luna

Casela nodded, “Well there are lots of options.” She sighed. “I’m sorry that happened to you Luna. No child, no person, should ever go through that.” She pauses considering the woman in front of her. Casela wasn’t given to the section. She went, willingly, like a lamb, but still. “I was idealistic, wanted to save the world. I was told I would be helping people. That my skills I learned during the dominion occupation of Betazed would be put to use saving others.” She takes a deep draw off her drink, as if it is something much stronger than water. Irida, near by pauses and perks up listening and Casela glares balefully at her until, flushed with shame, Irida looks away.
Lt. Synthi-er, CNS

Luna catches Irida’s interest. ” its rude listened into other people’s conversation or are you a spy” Luna growled at her. She glared at the consuler. That fragile trust starting to burn. Her defensive barriers going up again. ” Perhaps this was a mistake Lutanat” she said. She and Cas would pick up on her growing anxiety now that she was aware that attest one person in this room was listening in. She my also hear her think ” I can’t trust anyone this is a mistake”.
Ensign Luna

Casela shrugged, “Don’t mind Irida. She’s a horrible gossip. She’s probably hoping I’ll confess secrets of my relationship with the XO.” Casela grins. “Irida doesn’t mean anything by it. She’s very good for ship’s morale. The stories she tells are absolutely absurd and she and everyone else knows they have no basis in truth. It gives comic relief to the work we do. She’s actually one of the most reliable on board when it comes to keeping secrets. As for her obvious interest in me, well I got a leg up on her very early on and she’s dying to sneak up on me for some pay back. She’s got a long way to go before she sneaks up on me.” Casela nods in acknowledgement of Luna’s statement that it was a mistake. Casela doesn’t think so, but she leans back moving her chair backwards a bit. She wasn’t going to make Luna stay and talk to her. “You have to do what makes you feel safe, Ensign.”
Lt. Synthi-er, CNS

Luna blinked that was an interesting reaction. She had had people scrable backwards to get away from her or even back pedal. Luna settled for now. And there was only once she had some one call her on her paranoia. Many it was time to talk this out. Time to learn to trust” section 31 managed to take me off the brige of the viking. I have been told a few time that I’m paranoid. I don’t like living and always looking over my shoulder afraid to trust anyone.” She looked at Cas befor taking a sip of her drink. ” I want to trust people but I don’t know how anymore, the things they did to me. Then to find out that star fleet was responsible. What made you change your mind all section 31 members I have meet love that evil cult.” Luna said. She took another drink trying to relax.
Ensign Luna

Casela nodded. She’d heard from Kara and John that they thought Section was using Viking as a psychological experiment, and she wouldn’t doubt it. It made the counselor in her cringe. And she had no doubt that Section, if not involved, was able to get on board. Leviathan was a bit different. But if the Brass in Section really wanted on Leviathan they would. That’s how she ended up here. They wanted a spy in the ranks. She wouldn’t do it of course, but it’s what they were hoping for. And then there was McHarrie and now Akirel (who apprently wasn’t Section anymore, but she didn’t buy that) and then Juliet from spec ops, and Remington, and Surda, and the list went on and on. Too many....Casela knew something was going on, but it was yet to be revealed what.

She pulled her thoughts back to the present and she nodded. “It’s hard to trust those you don’t know. It’s even harder to trust those you know when so many before have broken and decimated that trust. As for how to find that trust,” she shrugs, “I’m not the best to ask that question, Ensign.” Casela looked over at Luna at her last statement. Her face passive, but her mind racing. Perhaps Luna wasn’t as injured as she claimed. A child growing up in the Section, she probably loved that Evil cult more than most. Children at that young age are strongly influenced by what they are exposed to. It was quite possible Luna was one of the best agents she’d encountered. Her first instinct was to leave, walk away, but she was on Leviathan, in the lounge surrounded by her Black Devils. And a comm away was any number of people she could trust. So instead she relaxed in her seat. She wouldn’t answer that particular question. If the Section wanted to know if she was in or out they were going to have to try a whole lot harder.
Lt Synthi-er, CNS

Luna wrapped her arms around herself. She stared down at the table.” Celeste you were like me wornt you? Locked in a cage and when they did let you it was only to pins to a table and poked and proved for hours on end.” She said her voice squicked. She dug her nails into her arms and her own torched memories danced infront of her eyes. Tears thretond to fall as she closed her eyes. ” I can’t stand to be alone anymore. I was not actually born with wings you know these cursed things were forced on me. They tried this test on several other humans all of witch died. I was the only one to service this experiment. ” she said. She Felt something worm on her hands. She had cut herself with her own nails. She didn’t really care it didn’t really hurt.

” I spent years so sick I was unable to move. They for the those first few years had simply left me alone. They took scans and what not daly but I heard them placing bets with exciter on when I would die.” She said a sob nearly shaking her. She took a deep breath realizing that talk had helped some. ” I got better as you can see. I had grown wings my bones had become hollow they were shocked. Nationally there tests and experiments started again.” Shd said then fell silent. She was ether unwilling or unable to continue to talk.
Ensign Luna

“I’m sorry that happened to you, En. No one deserves that. As for your wings,” Casela sighed, “I don’t know what to tell you. If it’s something you want reversed you could talk to someone about it, or you can choose to embrace it and use it to make you better, stronger, and more unique. Use it against those that hurt you.” She looked at her arms, “But right now we’re going to sickbay. I don’t want to order you, but I will. You’ve cut yourself and need to have it taken care of.” There was compassion there, but also no nonsense. Luna was bleeding and Casela, as a medical professional and as a decent person, could not in good conscious not have Luna report to sickbay. She led the way out of the lounge and down to the turbolift.
Lt. Synthi-er, CNS

” remove my wings no way” Luna said. That was not why she was telling this story. She looked as if she might cry. ” they may be cursed but I could never do that. What would cerenity think besides I need them. I just i need to talk about it. I’m tired of hiding and running. You went through something similar i know you did where else would you have gotten those marks from? Aren’t you tired of hiding and running from it too?” She said.

Luna scrambled back at the mention of sickbay. She looked at her hands. She had don it again cut herself. ” Casela im fine realy its not that bad i can take care of this myself really” she still followed knowing Casela could order her to sickbay. ” Casela my name is Luna, you know you can use it right?” She said as they stepped into the turbolift. ” Casela I really don’t like sickbay can’t I just treat it myself.” There was slight panic and squeak to her voice. ” iv cut my self like this a few times i usually just wash the wounds and let it heal on its on” Luna said. It was a defense mechanism an un healthy one but a defense mechanism all the same.

” Casela where did those scars come from” Luna said quietly. As the left the lift . She hesitated this was an emotional nightmare. She froze for a moment she could feel her hart race but it was not unusual her hart could and had gone faster when she was in the middle of combat or flying. ” Casela I need a moment please” she said if she was to upset when she walked in there there was no telling what would happen. Witch only filed her panic more. Casela would feel it Luna had not been lying to her or playing some kind of silly game. ” I hate section 31 i can’t stand doctors or scientists. I need to calm down before walking in there” Luna said. She know there was noy getting out of going but she needed to get control of her emotions first.
Ensign Luna