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Revna listened while he talked. There was nothing wrong with his memory or awareness of himself and his place in the world and he sounded very passionate about his position on Atlantis. “So now the big question Kai, why would you need to test your sanity?” Her voice was soft and soothing but the question serious, but her face held the hint of a smile. She was pretty sure he was just nervous, as his file didn’t show a need or concern for his sanity.
Lt Edman, Counselor

“Well… it’s been almost a year and I’ve passed lots of troubles and stuff. A mission in particular got us stranded and for some days I got to live with a sharp pain in the chest. To be honest I never felt uneasy but the experience was something unique in its genre.” He started talking “But I mean, maybe I am just doubting? Sometimes I laugh that much that I actually think I am crazy ahah… Sometimes I find too much time to spend alone that I feel like I always talked to myself and never to a human being. In anyway I came to seek some comfort and also to get some conversation. It’s been a while since the last true one.” He smiled. Yeah he was pretty much nervous and his job got him pretty busy. Experiment after experiment a load of stress was upon his shoulders and as the counselor went missing for a couple of months by now, he felt like his duty was to see if he was right or his belief of being out of sane was just… an imagination.

Drinking the last bit of his chinotto, Kai looked at the empty glass in his hand and put it in between his sight and the rooms lights it shines like the sun.
“What do you think?” He asked the woman for some results.

Lieutenant Jr. grade Kai O. Kingstone - CSO

“I know that if you are worried you are insane then chances are you are not. Unless something has happened recently then the events you mension did not damage you mind. I believe however you are stressed over the events you experienced, which is natural, and going through bouts of either throwing yourself into your work or staying away from people. Both instances worry you. Would you agree with that assessment?” Revna Waited.

Kai sighed for a second, almost like he was relieved. Then after a 5 seconds pause (he did check the time, weirdo!) he looked at Edman an opened his mouth to talk “I- I guess yes, I agree.” He then scratched his head. It wasn’t a new thing to know about Kai’s behavior when stressed. He was pretty good at faking being ok, but when stuff got overboard like a man during a storm then he was an anxious man, a really really anxious man.

Revna nodded, “There are many things you can do when you feel over whelmed. This one, is fairly discreet. It’s called ‘grounding.’ It requires you to pay attention to each of your five senses. You start by telling yourself 1 thing you can taste. Perhaps you just ate and the flavor of it is lingering. You focus on that flavor and recall the memory, the sensation of it. Then 2 things you can smell. Next is 3 things you can feel or touch. You don’t have to go find anything. In this instance you are sitting on that chair. What you feel or are touching is the chair, is it comfortable, are the cushions collapsing making you want to change your position? Is the cuff of your uniform irritating you with a loose string? It doesn’t matter, simply focus on it. Then 4 things you can hear, and finally 5 things you can see. The idea is to totally focus your mind on those things, and really examining how they taste, or feel, or look. You repeat the process until you feel comfortable again. Do you think trying that would help you? We can exmine other techniques if you think it won’t.”

“I also think you have a need to get it off your chest. Now I’m happy to do that for you. You could also try making video recordings, writing a journal, sketching it, talking to a plant. There are lots of ways to get your experiences out.”
Lt. Edman, Counselor

“Yeah I know. For the last months I kept writing a diary, would you like to read it?” He asked the counselor playing with his thumbs.

Lieutenant Jr. grade Kai O. Kingstone - CSO

Revna nodded slowly, took a sip of her drink. “If you would like to share it, yes I will read it. Or if you’d rather tell me yourself you can do that too. Or maybe,” she looked to see how Lt. Kingstone was doing, “there are only certain things in your diary you want to share now. It’s important for you to understand that you are free to share as much or as little as you like. If you would like me to read the diary I will and then we can meet again to talk about it.”

Lt. Edman, Counselor

Kai took a PaDD from nowhere… I mean where did it appeared? But anyway, taking the “PaDD”, the CSO tapped some buttons, then submitted a request and the LCARS server did its fuzzy things. The diary in reality was written on paper but Kai loved keeping stuff backed-up and indeed some scanned formats were saved in his personal database “Here… you may give a look to everything. I mean I am not shy… except for some part like page 237 and 299. OH and page 255 especially!” He nervously chuckled.

OOC: I do not have the diary written somewhere but you can assume it has plenty of happy and weird stuff. But from the last 30 days, his pages are filled with stress-signals.

Lieutenant Jr. grade Kai O. Kingstone - CSO