Posted by Ensign Karina Niles (Doctor) in Holodeck 2- Karina’s Eval

Posted by Lieutenant Junior Grade Janna Kingston (Assistant Counsellor) in Holodeck 2- Karina’s Eval

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“I see,” she said simply before draining her small mug. Janna set it down and looked out at the holographic people going about their lives. “Are you? Because I’m not. Some moments are okay, but man, there are days when it feels impossible to wrap my brain around it all. And that’s not even including the sometimes quite rational fear about my physical issues.”

~Janna Kingston, ACNS

She looked at the woman and just stared for a moment. After a rather long moment, she finally blinked and her voice was shaky. “I… yes. I’m fine. Sure, there are nightmares sometimes. I think I would be sent to you if I ‘wasn’t’ having some of them on ocassion. I mean, those creatures, the whole thing, was crazy. Right?” She tried to laugh but it was nervous.

Kingston nodded. “Being burnt by toxic blood rain wasn’t high on my to-do list that day, especially after considering we had to evaluate the ship first.”

She held up her arm where it had been burned. “My wounds are healed, and I am alive. My other ‘self’ thought it better to sacrafice herself because the experience was something I would need in the future. To treat those on the ship, and to help if we ever got caught in a similar situation. So,” she swallowed and smiled but it didn’t quite reach her eyes. “So… I mean, I’m really fine. I work because it’s what I’m here to do. I would think you would go after those ‘not’ at their posts. Right?” She grabbed the wrist of the passing waitress, then apologized realizing how hard she had grabbed. “Sorry… another please… for us both.” She put her hands in her lap and waited for the refill.

Karina
Doctor

Janna was quiet for a few moments before she spoke, making sure she knew where she wanted to take the conversation. It wasn’t always necessary to have a trajectory, but in this case there were some important things for them to discuss. “It’s not the working aspect that is the issue, Karina. Working, exercising… they don’t necessarily help you cope. They can be aspects of the process, but there are times when they becomes simply tools of avoidance.”

~Janna Kingston, ACNS