Posted by Lieutenant Junior Grade Janna Kingston (CNS) in Holodeck 2- Therapy in Unusual Places Day 1, Part 2

Posted by Ensign Viyara Nazeen (Scientist) in Holodeck 2- Therapy in Unusual Places Day 1, Part 2

Posted by Lieutenant Junior Grade Janna Kingston (CNS) in Holodeck 2- Therapy in Unusual Places Day 1, Part 2
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Janna nodded and sipped some more coffee. “This is where you need to pull out your own bag of tricks, otherwise known as coping skills. When we’re struggling with expressing things, sometimes it can be really useful to free write. Just open a clean page in journal and let whatever comes out happen without filtering. You might find something of use or it might just be a way to get your mind more focused.”

~Janna Kingston, CNS

“I can do that and I will,” Viyara replied with a nodded. “After finishing breakfast that is.” That said, she started on her bagel again, eating in silence for a while as she got lost in her own thoughts. Eventually she asked, “Is this going to change anything about the plans for today?” She tried to sound off hand, as if it didn’t much matter either way, but had the feeling that she didn’t quite succeed at that.

~Viyara Nazeen

A frown lightly touched Kingston’s mouth. “No, why would it?” Without more information it was hard to frame Viyara’s worry in a way that would help it make sense.\

~Janna Kingston, CNS

Viyara shrugged slightly and finished the last bite of her bagel. “I don’t know. Because I’m feeling unease and whatever else it is I’m feeling?” she asked and then suddenly rose to her feet. Walking over to the window, she placed her left palm on the glass and whispered, “I don’t know why, but in the bathroom … I … I felt the urge to hurt myself. I didn’t. I just grabbed the basin and held onto it with all my strength. I don’t understand it. I’m a little nervous, I think, but mostly I’m happy and excited to see Daggum. I-” Her voice broke and she felt a few tears run down her cheeks. She quickly brushed them away, feeling annoyed with herself.

~Viyara Nazeen

For a few moments, Janna just let Viyara feel whatever she was feeling, but then finally spoke up. “I know it may feel like it at times, but your being here with me isn’t a punishment, Viyara. I’m not here to point out your wrongs or chastise you for having feelings and urges. If I have to take steps because I feel you are a danger to yourself, I will do that, because care about you. Yes, as we’ve established, this is my job, but I think by now you can see why I chose to go through all the trouble of getting my Doctorate. Finding the best ways to a particular person through their difficulties is something I truly believe in. I can’t take away your pain, nor will I try. But I can help you find ways to make it hurt just a little less.” She paused for but a moment because she, very consciously said her next words. “I’m not your father here to punish you and pass judgement on who you are and what you do.”

~Janna Kingston, CNS

When Janna paused, Viyara had nodded and almost started to say something. And then Janna continued speaking and her words hit Viyara rather unexpectedly. A soft gasp escaped her lips and her breathing and pulse quickened. She didn’t understand why she reacted like that to a simple statement of fact. She felt the urge to run and at the same time felt as if she was rooted to the spot. Paralysed from head to toe. Trapped in her own body. Unable to say or do anything.

~Viyara Nazeen