Posted by Ensign Viyara Nazeen (Scientist) in Counsellor’s Office - Thus things continue to unfold

Posted by Lieutenant Junior Grade Janna Kingston (CNS) in Counsellor’s Office - Thus things continue to unfold

Posted by Ensign Viyara Nazeen (Scientist) in Counsellor’s Office - Thus things continue to unfold

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“So it doesn’t mean I can’t do my job, can’t be a Starfleet officer anymore?” Viyara asked hesitantly, while also feeling a spark of hope inside her. Up until this moment she hadn’t even consciously realised that that had been something she worried about.

“The symptom you’re experiencing can be managed. If this is what you want to do, the only one who will stand in your way is you, Viyara. If you do the work required, I promise you things will start to go smoother for you,” Janna said sincerely. She didn’t make promises lightly and this one was all about what Viyara herself could do.

Viyara took a deep breath and then nodded as she told herself that she could do this, that she would do whatever it took to get better.

“As for your question: Maybe that I’m slowly learning to ask for help and to trust other people? To rely not only on myself, but on others as well?” Viyara asked uncertainly. Her brows were still pulled slightly together, but she seemed a tiny bit more at ease than she was moments ago.

~Ensign Nazeen, Scientist

Janna nodded with a warm smile. “Sounds like a pretty lovely thing to me. And the thing I think we really need to emphasize here is that you made that choice. There are a lot of things you can’t control and will never be able to. But how you react to things is within your control. But it takes practice and before you leave my office today I’m going to give you a few tools to help you take control over the things you get a say in, alright?”

~Janna Kingston, CNS

“Alright,” Viyara replied, her voice trembling a little and yet there was a hint of determination on her face. “It feels … scary, but I want to do this. I don’t want things to continue to go down hill. I don’t want to snap at people.” She dropped her and moved her hand to the tension ball in her pocket. She didn’t actually take it in her hand, but ran the tip of her fingers over it through the fabric of her uniform pants.

~Ensign Nazeen, Scientist

“That’s good,” Janna said. “Sometimes knowing what we don’t want is just a useful as knowing what we do want. So makes notes of those things as well. As you continue to write down you emotions and the events or thoughts immediately preceding them, we’ll start to be able to see some patterns emerge. Knowledge is power, Viyara, and right now you’re gathering very important information about yourself. Let it unfold as it will.”

“Do you have any more questions at this point?” Kingston asked.

~Janna Kingston, CNS