Posted by Lieutenant Helena Laursen (Helm/Nagivation Officer) in side - sim: What No One Else Sees

Posted by Captain Marceau Renault (Commanding Officer) in side - sim: What No One Else Sees

Posted by Lieutenant Helena Laursen (Helm/Nagivation Officer) in side - sim: What No One Else Sees
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Helena moved slowly as they left the medical bay. It wasn’t the type of thing that she was going to voice out in the corridor for anyone passing by. They took the lift to the next deck and Helena turned toward Marceau’s quarters at the fore end of the ship. He apparently needed the rest far more than she did.

Helena

Marceau walked with her, still looking like he didn’t feel well with an arm over his belly. He wasn’t letting her help support him though, she’d already been up and around more than he would prefer. When they reached his quarters, he pressed the button to open the door and sat down on the bed. “See, I could’ve scanned myself, would’ve saved us a trip to sickbay.” He said.

~ Marceau

Helena sat down next to him, cross-legged on the bed, facing him. “Marceau…” She looked concerned and worried for him. She shook her head and grinned softly “You could have scanned me and saved me the trip too.”

She took his hand just held it. “Marceau, you are making yourself sick. Talk to me.”

Helena

Marceau wrapped his fingers around her hand and shrugged. “I didn’t know the stress was bad enough to make me sick.” He looked up at her. There was one big thing on his mind, “I don’t want anyone thinking I can’t handle my position.”

~ Marceau

“No one will hear such a vicious lie from me. They won’t hear it from Grey either. The brass selected you for command training when we were cadets. No one thinks you can’t handle it.” Grey was strange but a professional. Why hadn’t he talked to her? “If there is something worrying you, you have Cmdr Grace. That is what she is here for. Or, you know, you could talk to Cpt. Baumann. He’s a CO too. What has you so twisted up?”

Helena

“No one knows I’m sick because of stress. Helena, all we’re doing is travelling through space. What if something happens?” He nodded to her suggestions. The truth was, he’d never talked to anyone because of the flawed idea that they would think poorly of him. “I…” He sighed, “Je sais pas.” Then he held his stomach again and leaned forward. “I guess… When I was a Cadet, I was ‘captain’ of twelve people with a real captain over my shoulder every step of the way. Here, I am Captain of fifty-five people plus we have the eight MACOs aboard, and no one to look over my shoulder within a month of travel.”

~ Marceau

Helena listened quietly not interupting. “Okay, so we have grown from 12 to 55. You know what that means? If something goes wrong that is 43 more people who get to help us find a solution.” She squeezed his hand. “You aren’t supposed to know all the answers. You are supposed to listen to the ideas of the experts around you, and then decide. And again I say Grace and Baumann are going to be huge resources for you. Use them.”

“They’re both great officers. I just… Don’t know what to ask,” Marceau said with another little shrug.

Helena tipped her head to the side. “Do you remember when we were placed in our squads? You were so nervous because you only knew me and Akela? You were worried you wouldn’t meet the others expectations, or know who to ask if we had a non medical problem. Do you remember what we did?”

“We organized study groups and squad events outside of class.” Marceau replied.

Helena nodded, “We got to know everyone, outside of classes and duty. That is how you best lead Marceau. You need to get out, go to the gym, the mess, walk the ship. Talk to your crew, get to know them, and let them know you. You have never been the type of Commanding Officer to sit behind your desk. And all the ones you looked up to, didn’t either.”

“Besides,” she gave him a sassy look, “I am not an Admiral, but you know I will look over your shoulder and tell you if you are being an idiot.”

Helena

“No.... I suppose I didn’t. I didn’t think I was spending that much time behind a desk though,” Marceau said. He smiled and nodded, “Of course you will.” He was looking like he might hurl again. Clutching his belly and leaning over. “I guess it’s not just that but the job in general too.”

~ Marceau