Posted by Lieutenant Paige Rowan (Counselor) in Side Sim-Captain Goes to see the new CNS

Posted by Captain Tralla Sh’Zoarhi (Captain) in Side Sim-Captain Goes to see the new CNS

Posted by Lieutenant Paige Rowan (Counselor) in Side Sim-Captain Goes to see the new CNS
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Tralla thought she had been making progress with the last counselor however when that counselor was reassigned she was now back at square 1 so when she got a moment she decided she would see the new Counselor and start again

the Tall Andorain woman was not quite as feminine as some though she still was feminine enough she walked up to the Counselors office and rang the chime

Tralla

The door opened and a dark haired woman stood holding a black furred fox in her arms. She raised her eyebrows. “Good evening captain, come in.” She stepped aside to allow entry and the fox jumped from her arms and wandered over to the bookcase where he jumped up to sit and watch.

Paige Rowan
CNS

“I am sorry to drop in like this counselor but Do you have time for a session with me I am still trying to figure something out and could use the advice” The Andorian woman’s Antenna was twisting showing agitation and stress there was also stress lines around her eyes she looked tired like she was not getting a lot of sleep

Tralla

OOC Bump

KG

Paige watched the captain a moment. “Of course, come in have a seat. Can I offer you something to drink?” She asked.

Paige Rowan
CNS

“No thank you” she said taking a seat “So I was talking with our last counselor about this but we did not get very far in our sessions working things out so I guess I am back to square one on this matter” the Andorian woman stated simply

“Well that depends how you look at it I guess.” She said and smiled. “You’re starting over with a new counsellor yes, but you aren’t back to square one. “ she allowed the woman to continue.

she paused a few moments trying to find the words to start with suddenly she stood up and began to pace back and forth as she spoke “I have a daughter from a previous bonding my bandmates from that marriage are dead Lilith was there for all three of them they all died saving her. her fathers died aboard a fishing vessel that went down in a bad storm on Andoria while her Zhen mother died in an Orion attack on a Border planet with the Klingon Empire She is currently living on Earth with some friends” she started explaining her Antenna showing the pain from the loss of those she had cared about as they drooped suddenly

“I now am married to our Chief Science officer BJ Janzen we have been happily married for years however he wants to have kids and in a way so do I but the fact is I was never there for Lilith before due to being in Starfleet and our relationship has not been the best she resents the fact I was never there backtalking and just being generally cold I have tried and she does seem to understand it was not personal it was just I had my job that kept me away I am worried that because i was such a horrible mother the first time I would still be a horrible mother this time around too and that by having more kids i am reinforcing Liliths opinion that I don’t care about her! or her other parents” she explained as she continued to pace back and forth clearly the Captain was very conflicted about this “I do want to have more kids but at the same time I don’t want to make my relationship worse with Lilith and even then I find myself wondering if a Starship is even a suitable place for us to have kids!” she continued as she paced ever more furosiously

Tralla

Paige watched her pace. “Many families are born or live on starships. That debate isn’t a new one, and only you can make that decision for your family. However if I may I’d like to ask why you think you are a horrible parent?”

Paige Rowan
CNS

“I was never there for her until I became her only guardian She says she understands and forgives me for it but at the same time I can see the resentment every time she looks at me I have tried to make things better ever since she came to me but even then Just because I am doing what I can now can’t make up for all the birthdays I missed all the times I had to send her a subspace message I was just lucky that my bandmates had not filled her head with poisoned thoughts about me Though I bet that was more due to my husbands than my wife she was never happy with the fact that I joined Starfleet” she sighed as she flopped back into the chair the pacing clearly did not help other than to stress her out even more

Tralla

Paige gave the Captain a moment to sit. “I can see you’re obviously very anxious and worried about the situation. Can I suggest a breathing technique to help calm down a little and then we can talk about what you just said and your concerns. Is that alright?”

Paige Rowan
CNS

“Sure” Tralla said her dropping antenna looking as if it were laying flat on her head as she sat there the lines on her face displaying the hallmark stress lines of command as she got ready to try whatever the Counselor suggested

OOC Bump for Panda

KG

Ooc: sorry! thank you!

IC: Paige gave a slow calming breath. “Ok we are going to try something called the Box breathing technique. So lean back in the chair, you may close your eyes if you wishes the main thing is you are sitting upright, you can put your hands in your lap or on the chair arms whatever is most comfortable.”

She waited for the captain to get comfortable and then said “ We are going to start by slowly exhaling through your mouth, getting all the oxygen out of your lungs. Focus on this intention and be conscious of what you’re doing. Don’t force it, gentle breaths out. Now Inhale slowly and deeply through your nose to the count of four very slowly in your head. Feel the air fill your lungs, one section at a time, until your lungs are completely full and the air moves into your abdomen. Feel your stomach expand as well as your chest. And once comfortable hold it gently. For another count of four.”

She waited “ NowExhale through your mouth for the same slow count of four, expelling the air from your lungs and abdomen. Be conscious of the feeling of the air leaving your lungs. Gently hold for four, and repeat the breath in for four…”

She waited to give the captain a chance to complete a few sets herself.

“Keep doing that until you feel ready to continue. “

Paige Rowan
CNS

Tralla did as instructed as the counselor guided her on the exercise after a few more she was ready to continue talking about things nodding to the counselor

Tralla

Nodding Paige said. “Alright, would you like to revisit your point from before?” She waited, giving the captain time to consider before she spoke.

Paige Rowan
CNS

“I know i failed as a mother with Lilith and I just worry that if my Husband and I try for another child that to Lilith its going to look like i don’t care about her or my former bandmates and I also just don’t know how to decide whether or not to try for this child while being captain of this ship i mean is a Memorial Class Battlecruiser really the best place to raise a child?” she said softly

Tralla