Posted by Civilian Sair Songz (Counselor) in side sim - Dinner with the Songz’s

Posted by Commander Shedda Mal’athar (Executive Officer) in side sim - Dinner with the Songz’s

Posted by Civilian Sair Songz (Counselor) in side sim - Dinner with the Songz’s
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“It’s special, isn’t it? Grandparents and the children. I’m glad your mother was able to come for awhile. I admit I miss my father a lot.”

Shedda

“I miss mine too,” Sair said. She waited till Kel was running the bath and sighed a little. “It’s been good having her here. We’ve had a strange relationship over the years. I all but grew up at the hospital and we’ve always had our work in common, but beyond that we are very, very different people who see the universe differently as well. It’s been hard at times.”

~Sair Songz, CNS

“It is good to have some common ground. My father and I haven’t spent a lot of time togerher since I left for the Academy. Never much time to explore how we are different. It must be scary for your mother to see everything you went through, knowing the inevitable outcome and then to have Koro and know his life will be so different.” Shedda paused, “I don’t want to over step, I know I really can’t understand, but my heart goes out to the three of you. As your mother said earlier, it’s hard to let go of that fear and sense of finality.”

Sair nodded. It was even more so lately.

“How are you holding up?”

Shedda

Sair took Koro’s half empty plate and set it on her own empty one and realized she wasn’t sure. “I don’t know. I’ve always felt a bit torn but at least with my work everything was much clearer.” She took a moment to gather her thoughts. “Before Koro, before I decided to actively try to have a baby, I went about life very differently. For a period of time I was carefree. I had had the treatment and I knew that my children would be free of this madness. And so I sought companionship with, well, reckless abandon,” she said with a deep smirk. She wasn’t embarrassed by that fact either. “I thought I would have as many children as possible and everything would be great. But… having Koro, getting to the point of a child in my arms was so much harder than I imagined. I had watched others go through it, had a brush with that pain myself, but I never thought that would be my story. And now I look at Koro and wish I could give him a sibling, someone he could have in his life when his mother dies. But I’m not sure that that is realistic. Because let’s face it, I’m a single mother with a much lower life expectancy than any partner I might have out here and that, coupled with the mess that is our fertility is a whole set of complicated variables. Not to mention I can’t forget that genetics matter. A half-Kobliad child, if that is even possible, might not help my people much after all. We’re still at risk of extinction in two hundred years of we don’t massively turn things around. No pressure, right?” she said rather matter-of-factly.

~Sair Songz, CNS

A soft shake of her head followed Sair’s response. “The struggle between seld and society.” Shedda quietly contemplated what Sair had said. “I have read what is available in the database in your people. Given the fertility of your people and your distance…would a genetic donor be possible if you wanted to have another child?”

Shedda