Posted by Lieutenant Junior Grade Aasrel Izei (Chief Medical Officer) in Rest and Relaxation?

Posted by Lieutenant Commander Bethany Kovra Gadi (Chief of Security) in Rest and Relaxation?

Posted by Lieutenant Junior Grade Aasrel Izei (Chief Medical Officer) in Rest and Relaxation?
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“I’m very glad I am getting to share this with him and meet you all.” It was the only thing Bethany could allow herself to feel right now. The rest was too complicated and connected to things she couldn’t deal with yet.

The older Betazoid woman smiled. “He said he was going to take you sightseeing. I’m sure you’re looking forward to it. Betazed is beautiful.”

Betazed was a beautiful planet with wild weather. Bethany would go with him, but there was nothing she wanted to see. There were no memories here that she wanted to breathe life back into. She was saved from having to reply by Luna.

Bethany looked down as she felt little paws scrabbling at her shoe. She picked Luna up, who started sniffing and stretching towards the food on the counter. “Alright, come on.” She looked at the women, “Excuse me, I’m going to show her where her food is.” Bethany took Luna back down the hall to Aasrel’s room where they had set up her crate.

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The other women nodded. Soon they were taking food from the kitchen and putting it in the dining room. “Dinner’s done everyone!”

~ Izei, CMO

Bethany gave Luna a small pat on the head and closed the door on the crate. Luna was usually very behaved, but the house was big. She washed up and went back toward the kitchen and dinning room and joined everyone at the table.

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Everyone gathered around the table and took their seats. Mr and Mrs Izei sat next to each other, then Masas and Vexi, with Aazod sitting by Vexi. Across from them, Bethany, Aasrel, and Keyana. There was a lot of food on the table, mostly Betazoid, but also, Bethany’s favourite earth dish, Aasrel had sent the recipe.

~ Izei, CMO

Bethany’s brows went up at the distinctive Appalacian dish sitting on the table. It was an old dish that was rarely seen anymore. Except for families that had lived there for generations. She was surprised to see it. She had only mentioned it once in passing to Aasrel., “Cornbread salad?” She would have to remember not to mention it to Lachlan. He was very proud of his cornbread salad. The idea sent a bubble of amusement through her. “Thank you, Mrs Izei.”

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“Aasrel said it was your favourite. I hope you like it, I did my best. The ingredients weren’t easy to import.” Mrs Izei replied. She smiled, “I wanted to make something you’d like, but I encourage you to try what else is here, too. Aasrel has loved that,” she pointed to a dish Aasrel had made Bethany replicate before, “since he was very little.”

~ Izei, CMO

“Oh, I intend to. Aasrel has raved about your cooking. I’m not going to miss out on trying any of it.” And she did. Bethany tried everything. Even if she didn’t like it, she ate what she took. Things she had never had before, she truly enjoyed. One dish triggered memories she didn’t want to deal with, but she praised it all giving an honest and polite opinion if asked. The cornbread salad was nothing like Uncle Lachlan’s, but it was still good, and she gave truthful and honest compliments to Mrs. Izei about it.

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“Has he? I’m glad to hear it.” She seemed happy about the praise as Bethany tried everything. Aasrel ate plenty, and so did everyone else. There were still some leftovers that Mrs Izei and Keyana started putting away at the end of the meal. Aasrel leaned on Bethany and took her hand. “I’m glad you liked most of it.”

~ Izei, CMO

Bethany laced her fingers with his. “I did. Your mother is an excellent cook. You’ll have to settle for something less spectacular if you hang out with me, Doc,” she teased. She looked at him while he leaned against her. It had been a long day, and they had been in the shuttle for most of it. He hadn’t done any of his exercises yet.

Aasrel looked tired. He smiled though, “I think you’re worth less than stellar cooking.”

Bethany put on her best southern accent, “Why, Mr. Izei, what a delightful thing to say. People might start to tall if they hear you say such things.”

“Co-aur (Uncle)! We have to finish. We might beat Bezi this time,” Aazod said running up to get his attention.

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Her thoughts that he hadn’t done his exercises reminded him and he scowled. He looked down at his nephew, “Let’s finish quickly, and then I have to do something else.”

~ Izei, CMO

Bethany nudged him, “Take your time. The other thing can wait, hmm.” Aazod didn’t notice the qualification, he just grabbed Aasrel’s hand and dragged him back to the living room.

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The game took another half hour or so. When it was over, Aasrel returned to Bethany. “That kid has way too much energy.”

~ Izei, CMO

Bethany laughed suddenly. “All children have energy.” Aasrel’s mother came in with Vexi and Keyana. “That they do. I had the three of you at one time. I could never keep up and was always tired.” She grinned, “But I wouldn’t change a moment of it.”

“Come on Aazod. Bath, teeth, pajamas.” Aazod got up and threw his arms around Aasrel. Then his grand parents, aunt, and father before disappearing with his mother.

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Aasrel gave Bethany a look. “No kids.” He said and grinned. Then he sighed softly, “Alright, let’s do the stretches.”

~ Izei, CMO

Bethany’s eyes went up and down him and she gave him a wicked grin. “Too bad. But if that is how you feel, you’re the doctor. I would think you know how to prevent that.”

Aasrel grinned and elbowed her. “I do what’s necessary to prevent it. But I’m not going to say never in the future, in all seriousness.”

Bethany fanned herself with her hand, as if she was suddenly hot,m but refrained from any further outrageous teasing. She couldn’t hear what Mrs. Izei and Keyana were saying to each other, but their posture and facial expressions said it all.

Bethany set her hands to her thighs and stood up. “Alright, I’ll follow you.”

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Aasrel led her back to his room and then he sat on the floor.

~ Izei, CMO

Bethany sat down on the floor across from him, stretched to the side and opened Luna’s crate. Then as she reached for his hands to help him stretch she shook her head and teasingly chided him. “Do you see what you’ve done with that comment, Rel. I bet they are in there thinking we’re getting married. Tsk tsk.”

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Aasrel gave her a playfully serious look, “What, we’re not?” He asked. He took her hands and lay his leg out straight as he started doing his stretches.

~ Izei, CMO

Bethany didn’t say a word. She was shocked speechless. He could tell she was stunned. It was like her brain and her heart couldn’t process and sync up what he said with what she felt but hadn’t admitted. She wasn’t put off, and it wasn’t that Bethany wasn’t completely serious about him. It was that Bethany had learned to never take anything for more than a day, to never even allow herself to want something like that for herself.

She grew up knowing she wasn’t wanted, and being here seemed to make that reality all the more stark. Her life on Betazed had been a fairytale. She was Bezi’s little princess. She was safe and protected and loved. It had all been a lie though. Who would want the broken useless little girl that even a father didn’t want?

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Aasrel took her hand. “Bethany, I know we’re not ready to have that conversation seriously, but there’s no reason to doubt it’ll happen. I want to be with you. You. Forever.”

~ Izei, CMO

Bethany grinned at him. It was a cover. Aasrel knew her too well, and Bethany knew that he did. “Forever is a long time, Doc. Eventually, you’ll realize how boring I am. But until then I’m all yours.” She winked, but the love and longing was palpable. “Come on, let’s finish. Then you can soak. If there isn’t a tub, I’ll get out the heating pad.”

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“Boring?” Aasrel smiled at her. “I could think of no less fitting word.” He worked on his stretches as he spoke, “There’s no tub. Hot pad it is.”

~ Izei, CMO

Bethany pulled him further into the stretch and then leaned in and kissed him. “You’re amazing.” They went through the exercises and then Bethany got up and dug through her bag for the muscle rub and the anti-inflammatory hypo. She sat down next to him and massaged the rub into his leg and shoulder. “Do you want to sit in here with the pad or go out there with your family?”

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“I am?” He asked. Aasrel sighed softly as she massaged in the gel. It was very soothing. “Well… If we go out there, I can’t do this.” And then he pulled her into him and gave her a nice, long kiss.

~ Izei, CMO

Bethany smiled in delight against his lips, even as they tumbled backwards against the pillows. She shifted so they were laying on their sides, facing each other. She enjoyed the closeness, and didn’t care that his family probably knew what they were doing. She sighed, holding herself close to him. “I’m selfish. I would never deny you being able to do that.”

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Aasrel tucked his head in against her. “How about we split the time? A little longer in here, so I can rest with you, and then we go and spend time with them.”

~ Izei, CMO

“Whatever you want, Rel.” She kissed him again and sat up. She dug out the heating pads and wrapped them around his leg and shoulder. Then she laid back beside him, cuddled close to him. “Are you happy to be home?”

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He rested against her and closed his eyes. “Of course I am. It’s just… Almost weird being back here.” He shrugged slightly. “I guess it’s kind of what I was worried about, with not being myself, but I’m not sure.”

~ Izei, CMO

“You’re not a child anymore. Even without those things, you’ve changed. Look at this last mission we were on. It changed you, it changed a lot in your life. And it’s not something that you can every tell them about. No matter your brother or father’s clearance. You have to keep a secret from them. It’s hard and it’s weird. You are no longer the protected child. The family dynamic has changed, even if they don’t know it, you do.” Bethany hugged him tightly. She understood, she really did. She went through the same thing the first time she went home. She still did. This next time would be wor… Aasrel could feel it, that something was beating at the back of her mind, against the block T’Jal placed. Bethany pressed her face into his chest and her hands bunched in his shirt. She blanked her mind, thinking nothing, letting it ebb away. She wasn’t ready to face what was there.

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Aasrel hugged her tightly, laying his head on her. “We’ll manage. Both of us. Let’s just try to enjoy our time together.” He said. He let his muscles relax as the hot pads worked. “I’ll be there with you when we go to Earth.”

~ Izei, CMO

Bethany nodded against him. “I know. I want to go,” where she hadn’t before. “I miss my uncles, I want to see them. I want them to hug me, chide me, tease me, and berate me for not eating enough and not getting out in the sunshine.” There was strain and tears to her voice. Fear and an edge of grief. Not because of the suppressed memories, but because she really hadn’t thought she would make it home again because she’d been so sick, and before Aasrel no one really did anything. Riley had started to, but he’d left. She hadn’t thought she would ever see her uncles again, and she couldn’t even send them a message.

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“And we’re going to go, and they will do those things,” Aasrel said softly, smiling. He kept hugging her and he kissed her cheek gently. “How are you liking it here?”

~ Izei, CMO

Her cheeks flushed warmly where he kissed her. Her head tilted softly into the contact. “Your family is very nice. I’m glad I got to come with you.” She pressed closer, “I don’t know otherwise, about being on Betazed. I never wanted to come back here, Rel. There are memories and feelings bubbling that I’ve forgotten or ignored. I’m glad I’m with you, but…” she shrugged uable to put words to it.

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Aasrel hugged her and sighed softly. “I was hoping bring you here, there’d be pleasant memories and you’d like it…” He said honestly, “but while I’m disappointed, I’m not upset.” He kissed her gently. “I’m just glad to have you.”

~ Izei, CMO

Bethany shook her head, her face nuzzled into his shoulder. “Some are pleasant, really. They just… make everything else hurt more.” Her father had loved her, or at least he seemed to. What had she done to change that?

“I like being here with you. I do, and we’ll make new memories.” She leaned back to look at him. “Not much looks familiar, and that’s sad. Mostly what I remember is vague, except for the occupation. That’s vivid. I’m sure the longer we are here, the more I’ll remember.”

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Aasrel smiled. “Well, then the question is, do you still want to see things you might have seen before or do you want to see new things?”

~ Izei, CMO

Her teeth worried at her lower lip. “Maybe we could start with new things? I want to see the lake with you, but I get a really sick feeling in my stomach over it.”

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“Okay,” Aasrel said easily. “I have quite a few ideas of things we can see. Both tourist attractions and places I’ve been.”

~ Izei, CMO

“Okay.” Bethany curled into him, her head tucked under his chin. “I’m sorry I’m struggling with this. It’s making it hard for you. I don’t want you to miss out in using your telepathy and just being yourself. I’ll manage. Your family is pretty expressive. I’m sure I can get the gist of what is going on.” Her eyes closed against his warmth. “Your sister said it wasn’t like you, that you had always been very proud of your telepathy and how strong you were. You still should be. Don’t let me ruin that.”

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“You’re not. Don’t let anything make you think you are.” Aasrel hugged her tightly. “A mind meld isn’t a magic fix. It helped, a lot, but it doesn’t erase what happened or the trauma that came with it.” He sighed softly, “The meld didn’t change me back, Bethany. I’m still not who I used to be. It just muted the pain and shame that fact makes me feel.”

~ Izei, CMO

“I know it doesn’t. But you wanted this, you wanted your telepathy back, and you have it, so use it. Don’t let my… difficulty with it, stop you from taking what you want. The only way to get your life back from trauma is to keep moving forward. To grab it and take it. The only way to heal is to face it. Right now you need time and distance so you can heal. So one step at a time.” She pulled back and looked at him, very serious. “You are not the same person you were. That can’t be changed, and the clock moved backwards. But I know you haven’t been able to find out who you are now. One way to do that is to look at who you were, and decide what you can keep. No matter who you are now is still shaped by your memories and your past. No,” she held a finger to his lips and grinned, “you aren’t that person anymore, but it won’t damage you to remember.”

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Aasrel’s eyes teared up as he grinned against her finger. Then he leaned in and hugged her again. “So you’re saying I should still be proud of the telepathy I fought to get back.” It was a serious statement but he was grinning a little bit. The grin faded though, “I don’t know. I want to, but… Maybe if I try using it more?”

~ Izei, CMO

Bethany tapped his nose twice playfully. “Exactly. Maybe it won’t be the same, but you won’t know until you do.” She let out a soft breath. “It’s natural and a big part of how you define yourself. There is no reason for you to not use it or not be proud. Just because my situation was not so idyllic, you don’t have to live in my world. My child like skill isn’t even a substitute for what you can do. You need more people to connect with.”

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“I just don’t want you to be miserable while we’re here. This is your trip too and if everyone is using telepathy, well, I don’t want you to feel excluded.” Aasrel said, taking her hand and squeezing it. “As proud of my telepathy as I might be or have been, I love you. I want you to enjoy this trip.”

~ Izei, CMO

“I love you too.” She gave him a quick peck. “I can still hear them if they are including me. And we both know I have to get used to it sooner or later.” She squeezed his hand back. “I will enjoy it. I’m here with you. I promise if it’s too much I will tell you. Besides, you’ll know. Okay?”

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Aasrel nodded and hugged her again. “Okay. Are we ready to go back out there?” He asked, pulling back just enough to see her face. The soft light of his room reflected off the mechanical flecks of his prosthetic eye, making them glint slightly as his gaze moved back and forth slightly, taking in her features.

~ Izei, CMO

She loved his eyes. They were completely unique, and when he looked at her like that, she felt seen. Inside, where no one else bothered to look. It made her feel flushed and giddy. “I am if you are.” She sat up slowly, her hand trailing over him. Her fingers laced with his prosthetic one, on purpose. I love you, Rel.

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Aasrel smiled and took her hand in his as her fingers laced with his. I love you, too. With his words came the emotions associated with them, washing over her. He stood, still holding her hand, and led her back out to the family room.

~ Izei, CMO

Bethany flushed, her response was equally heady but her projection was still stuttered, perhaps more so. Nervousness and uncertainty and knowing that the other telepaths would know how unskilled she was and be able to ‘hear’ and ‘feel’. For all Bethany’s outrageousness, in this she was self-conscious and unsure, even if she wasn’t aware of it.

She followed him back into the family room, which was audibly silent. His mother looked at them and Bethany nodded herbhead slightly with a smile. The woman hadn’t said a thing to her, but Bethany could tell from her body language. She looked at her son. Aasrel, tell us what you have planned for your visit. What do you want to do?

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I want to take Bethany sightseeing. Aasrel replied, It’s part of the reason we decided to take a vacation. Speaking telepathically came naturally, easily to him, though he was surprisingly out of practice considering he’d been practicing with Bethany. He squeezed Bethany’s hand and smiled, trying to reassure her.

~ Izei, CMO

You should visit the Plaza of Contemplation and YloTrap. Amick Hall is beautiful, his mother said. His father shook his head, Perhaps not. He looked at Bethany, knowing she had been on Betazoid until then, “It was built to honor those who died in the resistance.”

His mother looked apologetic, Maybe there is somewhere she remembers that she would like to see again.

Bethany smiled at his father, “Actually I would like to see the Hall. Some of the people we hid in Jalara jungle with didn’t survive. I’ve never seen the capital either.” Bethany looked at Mrs Izei, “Mostly I remember the occupation and the jungle. I was young, I’d never find the way back to where we were hiding.”

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Masas gave Bethany a sad smile. I could. It was a scary time, but I was very young too.

Aasrel nodded, I’ll take her there. There’s a lake she might want to see, we’ll see when we want to go.

~ Izei, CMO

Bethany nodded in agreement with Masas. They could all feel the fear those memories raised, the panic, the stress, the uncertainty. “It was scary. We were the lucky few, a lot of people were not.” Bethany really wasn’t sure she wanted to go back to the Lake El’nar. The memories of the Jem’hadar breaking into their home and her father sending them away were vivid still when they surfaced. They seemed to be doing that a lot lately. “Mostly everything is new to me. I don’t remember much from before that.”

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Then you are in for a treat. Betazed is beautiful. Masas smiled, I really do hope you like your time here.

~ Izei, CMO

“Betazed is very different from home. I’m sure I’ll enjoy it. I haven’t had leave in a long time.” The sounds of Aazod trying to bargain about bed time. “What about you, Masas? What are your plans for your visit?” Bethany asked him.

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